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I struggle daily with these feelings : contempt towards people and disassociating from them. Sometimes I take everything personally. Most of the time I can handle it by doing DBT, but what upsets me is when I fail to do DBT and get caught in emotions and loop thinking.

How do you usually handle this ?

This may be triggering because of the nature of what goes on in my head so please stop reading now if you may be affected negatively by what I have to say.

I am so fed up. I’m tired. I feel distorted, worthless, scared, confused, and lost. I hate everyone around me because I feel like it’s all their fault that I don’t feel supported or always find myself home alone crying in bed but ...

You may notice that you tend to overidentify with your emotions and moods. So times you feel intensely, you put all of your identity into that...but times you don't, you put all of your identity into that, too.

One minute you can come across extremely caring, fragile, open, vulnerable, and loving...

But the next day...the other side of your double-headed personality shows itself and you suddenly don't care about anything or anybody.

Then, there is ...

Im not sure if anyone will reply to this, but I needed to write this as I don't feel I can talk about this to anyone.
I went out with my boyfriend a few weeks ago, and he was talking to a school friend who was absolutely beautiful. The minute I saw her, I told my boyfriend how beautiful she was and that she was so much more then me. He disagreed and I didn't ...

Hey is it possible and common to have these two overlap?
I was diagnosed with bpd a few weeks ago but I'm almost sure I have some avoidant symptoms as well.

To give you an idea of what I mean:
The shrink says I'm borderline because of my self harm, poor impulse control, excessive drinking and partying, promiscuity, problems with a sense of self, moodswings..

But also, I'm so lonely. I have no actual friends. ...

So, the minute I wake up this little nagging voice that is a voice but also my thoughts goes off and all day long says: "You are/I am such a loser, you have no future, everyone hates you, no one cares about you, you should just k*ll yourself right now you epic loser."

The thing is, it's not wrong, people have told me a number of times I'm a loser, and in society's perception I ...

....Respectively playing/joking to abusively toying with people.
... to just a needed and fair punishment, like a sibling hitting and scaring the kid, or maybe even restricting the child.
(I think the sensible nature of every kid makes it seem worse than it actually is, so kid grows up thinking it was abused)

where's the line that defines what's abuse and what's not for you?

Not only in these situations, but many others like jobs, ...

Assuming you started having sex with someone, purely because this someone is physically attractive, and everybody likes sex.

Are you able to differentiate love from sex, can you have sex without putting a romantic charge on it?

If so, how long and/or how many lays before you start to confuse things? Does it depend on how good the sex is?

And then, as soon as you realize you are developing feelings for this person, and ...

I was such an asshole to this guy last night, and i’ve been thinking about my actions ever since. We matched on tinder (dating app), and we were talking dirty to each other. I was horny so I decided to message him and ask him for pics and he said no. I replied saying “why, because your ass is flat?” Which was actually so gross. I can’t believe I said something so absurdly disgusting and ...

Does anyone else try to fill the chronic emptiness they feel with material posessions? I find I do, it leads to impulsive spending and hoarding. No matter what I do to fill the void, spending, sex, speeding, I just remain feeling empty inside. I think this desire to fill the void drives all my self destructive behavior rather than fears of abandonment(even though I have fears of abandonment).