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Beloved,

Apologies for the length. I need to get steam out, and no one is left to hear me out...

My name is Ian. I'm just about 23, and don't remember having a friend in my entire life. My parents were very nice as I grew up, but a little distant. My mother is a very nervous, skittish type who worries about everything, and my father is a total nihilist who hates life. There was ...

To begin with, I had a "near death experience" last week. I was in a major car accident, yet came out with only bumps, bruises, and whiplash. It was a miracle we all survived we were told by the emergency response team after they saw our car.
Despite being asked many times if I feel traumatized by this, I do not. The thing that has been bugging me about this experience is that when the ...

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So my grandfather just died an hour ago.

Yesterday my mom called me and asked if I could house sit and watch the dogs because my dad is working and she would be gone.

I said of course.

When I get there the house is a huge mess of course because my father is (useless without my mother)
can't clean a dish or do his own laundry or keep a place clean. ( They have ...

Hi everyone. I've been visiting this site forever now and finally decided to join. I especially loved the "you know you're BPD when" thread. What drove me to finally join today was the interesting day I had at work. So, I am an elementary school teacher and I know this is horrible, but today at work during my break, I ate a mini snickers, immediately felt guilty, threw it up in my trash can (yes ...

Yeah so I've been whigging out crying for the past 3 hours because my guy took too long to answer my text. :shock: Freaking hilarious.

All is good. He's with his parents. They are yelling at him for wrecking his car.

I told him he needed to text / call me if he wants to see me again because I feel like I'm chasing him or something. ...

So I might mention that I work with disadvantaged youth on a state-run campus, and I am currently their Admin Assistant. And it's my second week on the job (AND I FREAKING LOVE IT!!!!!!).

But today.... well, something strange happened. I guess it was bound to.



This gossipy counselor comes in, and is all ready to chat and gossip. They had the kids' clinicals this morning, and I was in the manager's office putting files ...

I texted. no response yet. Ripping the bandaid off. Why can't I just be normal like everyone else.

About three weeks ago my ex and I broke up. I moved out and to a different state to live with my sister. Since I moved, I've been in the hospital once. I started reading a book that seemed to have helped a little.

But then my emotions caught up with me. The loneliness set in. The lack of friends and support, primarily during the day. I started isolating. I hate getting up in the ...

How has had a #######5 month and year?

*raises hand*

Does fall/winter make it worse of better?