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I don't know how I got to be so stupid.

I just want someone to be around, to care about me... and I let myself be used. I feel like the only value I have is in what I do for others. They don't care about me. I make them feel sooo good... so they'll come back. I keep giving until I feel used up.

How do I keep forgetting?? How do I always fall ...

For a long time, I've noticed that whenever I start a conversation with someone, I immediately want it to die. This is because I feel, well, I feel certain that one of us is going to get nasty and the other one will get hurt. So basically what I'm doing when I talk to someone is just to dance around that rage that I always feel is there. My trick is to dissociate so they ...

Oh god, currently mid trigger and my god think I'm having a breakdown. Anyone notice when you retreat into your own world, people fuss around you and make things worse? When all you want to do is scream "LEAVE ME ALONE - YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!!!!"
We're currently mid-moving house and all I've had from my partner is nagging, negative issues, name calling and general negativity. I'm trying to get better and not flip, thing ...

I posted this in the non-borderline support thread but it got overlooked.


Is there room for a non-borderline support sub-forum? Having been in a relationship with a borderline, and still attempting to deal with the fallout from that, I like to read up on and lend my support to others in similar situations. The problem with the current format is that having it all in one thread makes it difficult to do so as the ...

I keep this BOD bottled up inside. I started talking.

I was talking with my fiance about swimming lessons for my 5 yr old son who is terrified of water. I was saying why I thought is was a bad idea. He said "Don't be so negative" I said my BPD response which was roughly "That's like saying you want to trade me in for a different model, that you don't want me anymore"

Today ...

This is really a general question for anyone who has ever become totally isolated because of his fear of the world and managed to break out, even a bit.
(just to clarify - in Isolated I mean: not going out to parties, not seeing people you don't know (only friends), not dating and generally being ashamed of yourself and building walls around you)
And the question is - how did you get out of it? ...

Sometimes I find it helps to try and learn something from every bad situation I find myself in. Like maybe if there's a lesson to be learned my pain had a purpose. Anyway, I thought I would start a thread where people can share anything we learned. Maybe it will help to try and put a positive spin on things...

Lesson of the day: Stop seeking approval from people unable or unwilling to give it. ...

It hardly ever happens anymore, but I still experience some relationship-centric paranoia. I don't want to be a creepy spy on texts or anything because I figure that I'm irrational, but GOD IT DRIVES ME CRAZY.

What do you do to keep control of yours?

So I've noticed patterns where nons will sense or get a vibe of defensiveness from me and other BPD sufferers and based on this, regardless of assurances of not being in a bad mood, the nons will decide what your character is and will choose how they act around you. How can one explain that this is just how they appear and they are not generally in a pissy mood? It's normal to us but ...

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