5 years of chronic pain has lead me to a life of depression

I have had 5 years of chronic pain most of it is only shoulders arm neck and backi work l day and Iam gettingto the point that its hard for me to function my pain makes me evenmore depressed asdayil chores are gettingharder on me. I cleaned the house yesterday and now im strugglingto get threw my work day as all painisgme a migraineyex I have been to doctors they want to run more test. I have nohealth insurance so itshard to afford anything. I just want to go home a.d/lay in bed but I have a familiy to support. I dontknow where to turn its also been 5years of medicine I want to try to just suck up the pain but ito much sometimes I just want tons dond with life so I don't haveto feel this physical pain any more

I guess I can just post to myself..after a long day at work I am left with aweful pain a headache and no were to turn.. it takes every bit of me to give my children attention and do things I need to do. My son is acting out and I can't help him. I need to take a hot bath and go to bed but have such guilt about turning in this early when I have a family. I can't deal with anymore today. I want to sleep and need sleep but I know it will be a night of tossing and turning. I hope the hot water helps though sometimes it hurts. Almost feels like someone is hurting me with needles. Everyone is tired of hearing it including the doctor. I want to cry. I want to beat the pain at its own game but it continues to win.

12:40 andy pain has the best of me I feel sick and I hurt. The pain iny shouldet is too much

I know I'm late, but I am sorry. That sounds extremely difficult. I deal with mild chronic pain, but have had flair ups. I have considered suicide seriously because of these issues. I don't know how you are able to cope, and support a family. You need help, and I'm sorry you don't have insurance. That really sucks. I've also dealt with intense tension headaches in the past, they are not fun. It causes more issues than one would think, more than you would imagine when you hear the word, it affects everything. Keep going, keep trying. That's all there is, I'm sorry this has happened to you.