Seems like my life is just one phase followed by another. After each phase, I end up somewhere new and with more/different challenges.

I never know what to do in the present. I always feel stuck and end up procrastinating, and making poor decisions. Yet I always know what I SHOULD have done in the past. I never know the right thing to do until it's "too late".

My life changed again some days ago, and I'm trying very hard to stay focused. I've decided to stay with my boyfriend. Despite everything, I need his emotional support because I feel at war with my family and so terribly alone. I also feel this kind of connection is extremely rare and this relationship is worth fighting for some more.

Even when I have no clue what we're fighting ABOUT. Even if some of those fights get physical. The good things about our relationship are too precious for me to discard.

I'm conflicted, but that's my decision.

And this has to be the busiest next few months of my life so far.