I sit in a seat of power. I have given up pain meds,lorazipam,xanax, weed. I want for nothing other than to feel everything. I have a contentment and peace I have never known before. I do not need vices I have used for 25 years. I want to be me and nothing else. There is nothing wrong with me.

I am not the source of his issues and I no longer take the blame for anything I am not at fault for. His usual traps are useless as I see right through them. I do not care to be the energy that is sucked dry with negativity. My energy is mine and i am no longer giving it away. I am reserved for the one who really loves me *Huge Smile*

I want for nothing else. I need nothing else. I found my bliss. I am centered and THE center.
I have dropped 6 pounds or more since I last blogged. I am cleaning out my system.

I could not be happier with today and the last 2 weeks. I hate,rage,hurt for PITA no more. He used that name to create accounts with Kay so why would I ever all him my pita again? You will never hear that again..never. I no longer belong to you. And you know it. Grow the ###$ up. Your a sad excuse for a human and I PITY YOU. I have nothing but pity for you.

I leave you behind and start anew. What I feel inside now is TRUE REAL LOVE and there is no room for negativity or excuses. I smile knowing I have everything I need within. No one can take that away and I will never surrender it to anyone ever again.