I did things that make me feel bad in order to make my husband feel good so he would in turn show me some affection or attention or love. I made a self pleasuring video for him and it got nothing but complaints. Imagine baring yourself and masterbating only to hear complaints about the sexy teddy and the sound being too loud and the video taking over the screen. Gee thanks I feel so good about myself now I think Ill ######6 delete myself. There is NO GAINING here just rejection. Now my heart is closing up and I no longer ######6 care about trying to get love out of a god damn asshole. Ya can't squeeze love out of a asshole..$#%^ is the only result of squeezing.
I will not be bothering to email videos to a man who is not even going to tell me it turns him on.
perhaps I cant DO IT LIKE KAY DID ON YAHOO WHILE I WAS CAMPING IN JULY..maybe
cause obviously
I cant even masterbate for him right. the scale of my heart it tipped
and not in his favor