Had one of the best days at work yesterday.
Only because my two co-workers were s'hitty with each other. The tension between them caused them both to remain silent for the entire day !
Sweet bliss, long may you last.
NPC wrote:Anyone familiar with the feeling that you're not supposed to be in a certain place?
Sometimes, while I'm outside my apartment in places like my class and even the bus station, I begin to have an uncomfortable feeling that I'm not supposed to be there, something that I would describe as feeling "not home". For example, during my classes, I can feel that I'm "foreign" to this place.
emillionth wrote:Is there anything in life that you can pursue which has both good motives and good outcomes, and which at the same time feels rewarding to pursue? Or is this triple combination simply impossible?
emillionth wrote:I find that... the only way for those things (or their natural sequence) to stay compelling is if you never question them. You just go on living your life forever trying to one-up your big brother and not realizing that that's what you're doing.
It's a weird thing. For example, I remember that computer coding could be a lot of fun, and I miss that. But it's an activity that doesn't exist without a goal beyond the activity itself. For the creation process to be rewarding, you need to believe that you're solving a problem. And nowadays I question whether it's even any good for any new computer programs to be created. Because there's no problem that can't be solved by machines -- and then be made worse than before by people.
One question that I often ask myself is: "Is it even a good idea at all to embrace that kind of desire to be bigger than myself? Or is living life one small thing at a time the only sensible way to live?"
emillionth wrote:I guess the next iteration of the question is: "Is it possible to overcome rather than satisfy the need to believe in something?"
muaddib wrote:I'm debating whether I should finally lock up my account and move on from the forum. I've really liked it here, but I'm not sure my remaining problems really fit a personality disorder (if my problems ever did).
More practically, it's looking like I may be involved with people IRL that like to data-mine things or run stylistic analysis on papers. I'm concerned that if I stay active and Google doesn't lose my posts in the pile, there's a chance someone might stumble into connecting my posts here to my work IRL. It wouldn't be the end of the world if they did; everything I've written here, I either stand by or can explain as part of an evolving view. The simple fact that it's on a PD forum though would make things real awkward.
muaddib wrote:I was recently going through an "ah, what's the point" phase in life too, like "if humanity will quite probably go extinct someday, what's the ultimate point of anything in human life?" I think I found a perspective that works for me though.
Actually, while I think you can apply that approach to details, there's sort of this basic choice beneath it all: Do you believe the world is real and meaningful, or is it an illusion (or some complicated mix of the two)? Both are ultimately beliefs, but I think any choice you take implies one or the other.
muaddib wrote:More practically, it's looking like I may be involved with people IRL that like to data-mine things or run stylistic analysis on papers. I'm concerned that if I stay active and Google doesn't lose my posts in the pile, there's a chance someone might stumble into connecting my posts here to my work IRL.
naps wrote:muaddib wrote:I'm debating whether I should finally lock up my account and move on from the forum. I've really liked it here, but I'm not sure my remaining problems really fit a personality disorder (if my problems ever did).
Welcome back muaddib. Sorry, but you're here for life.
naps wrote:muaddib wrote:It wouldn't be the end of the world if they did; everything I've written here, I either stand by or can explain as part of an evolving view. The simple fact that it's on a PD forum though would make things real awkward.
Simple:
Philonoe wrote:muaddib wrote:More practically, it's looking like I may be involved with people IRL that like to data-mine things or run stylistic analysis on papers. I'm concerned that if I stay active and Google doesn't lose my posts in the pile, there's a chance someone might stumble into connecting my posts here to my work IRL.
That's frightening
emillionth wrote:muaddib wrote:Actually, while I think you can apply that approach to details, there's sort of this basic choice beneath it all: Do you believe the world is real and meaningful, or is it an illusion (or some complicated mix of the two)? Both are ultimately beliefs, but I think any choice you take implies one or the other.
Both can be beliefs, but it's only inevitable that they are assumptions. Beliefs are necessarily held as true, but assumptions don't have to be.
emillionth wrote:muaddib wrote:I was recently going through an "ah, what's the point" phase in life too, like "if humanity will quite probably go extinct someday, what's the ultimate point of anything in human life?" I think I found a perspective that works for me though.
Namely... ?
xcagedsilhouttex wrote:Lines are blurred at the moment and I am struggling to identify myself for who I am now rather than who I was. My personality has changed drastically over the past year. I have become a caring, considerate and thoughtful person rather than the selfish and egotistical person I was. The contrast is vast and it makes searching within myself difficult. Do I measure from the person I am now, which is so new that I am not sure if it could even be considered valid or do I measure from whom I was in the past even though I no longer behave in that fashion?
I think the correct answer is to measure from who I am currently however I think I am struggling to let go of the person that I was.
Muaddib : You all just assume you're not crazy?! You know who always just assumes they're sane: crazy people."
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