News of Cutting and Self Injury Forum

I have had an almost lifelong SI problem.

I've always had bad skin, worse than most people, but I make it worse.

I almost feel OCD about having acne and feel need to take care of it by digging, popping. I really feel better with a cut than the acne, but I never let them heal properly, either.

I have scars all over, my body is ruined. I feel gross and disgusting, but when I ...

Well simply as the title says.. my life really IS falling apart.. one of my now ex best friends has severely pissed me off and i'm no longer talking to her.. at the moment i really can say i hate her..she doesnt trust me.. and then i found out one of my other best friends doesnt trust me..

my other best friend is tapering away from me due to different colleges.. we promised to keep ...

Nothing is real. Nobody's sincere. Everyone has ulterior motives. And half of what feels right in the world is made up in the mind. We give meaning to paint and plaster, wood and nails. It's all nothing. It's all #######4. Why even bother? I feel like such a ######6 piece of $#%^. I feel like nothing. And like the world is nothing. And yet I fear nothingness. So I stay in this nothing world.

I ...

Well just saying goodbye to everyone. I just took 13 celebrex and nobody will be home untill 8. I wish there was another way but theres no turning back now. Amy I love you too death never forget that even if you dont want to see me ever again. Now I realize that I really dont have any reasons to live. Bye everyone you guys were awesome.

Kayty

So I guess Im a real mess right now. I dont know what to do with myself. I feel so hopeless and I feel like it is getting worst. I mean I have been posting on here more and more lately. Ahhh I hate this life so much and to top it off I burned yesterday after not self injuring for 2 weeks. :(

Kayty

i have hurt myself in some form or another since i was very young. i would jump out of trees or refuse to leave gymnastics practices untill i couldn't walk. eventually i started cutting and burning myself. i did that on and off throughout high school and my freshman year of college. about six months ago i was finally able to stop, not because of any change within me, but because i couldn't stand to ...

my name is brittany and i am 13 years old. i feel like cutting becuz mom and dad is fiting becuz of me. i hate me and i dont deserve to be alive. i shoodnt have been born in the first place. i hate mom and dad but not more then i hate me.

Too much $#%^ is happening in my life... I need a fricken break!!! I want to crawl into a hole and never come out again...

Sonny, the guy that was renting my place, while i was in Florida, i let him stay till he could find another place. And, he was driving for Mr. Thornton, in the truck that i was in before. Well, he took off with Mr. Thornton's truck and the money that ...

Hey,
Just wondering if any of you have used any type of cream antibiotic or anything like that that has helped scars fade?
It's pretty messed up- for some reason my skin scars extremely easily, so I have a bunch of scars on me that aren't even self-inflicted! For example, I got a papercut a couple months ago, and it gave me a scar... The scar isn't even completely gone! My knees have huge scars ...

So I guess im feeling suicidal again. I really dont know what I want. I hate feeling this way and I dont want to hurt my family, but I cant help it. I think the only reason I havent cut or made any attempts is because I dont want to let down the family. I have already put soo much stress on everyone and they all are waiting for me to get better. I just ...