News of Cutting and Self Injury Forum

Does anyone else damage themselves after they have been assaulted, in the same way they were assaulted, hoping to die from it?
Trying to damage themselves to the point where they die? Reinacting the event?
Am always sorry the next day because I am still alive.

I used to think I had an idea. Or a few even.. I used to think I liked the pain, or the blood. Or maybe the endorphin rush afterward. I don't really like any of it now though. Everything about this habit or routine I get into is negative. I never feel better, it's never enough.

I have lived with depression most of my life and have tried once to get professional help. I took ...

Recent breakup and and I can tell you (relationship/topic194227.html) - I have considered cutting BUT what scares me is me losing my job and worse, being hospitalized. I don't want my ex to look at me any lower than he sees me already. It has been over a year or so since cutting. I never understood where in the world I got the idea from as I had never ...

Am trying to kill myself by reinacting my rape. Am damaging myself. Self abuse self hatred. *mod edit* Every day for 3 weeks now.
I just hate myself and hope I can die this way.
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As title

I'm sure the mods will lock this, but hey ho!!

I am having trouble seeing my self-harm as a bad thing. I don't feel like it's a big deal. Partly because I don't do it deeply, it's only scratches really with scissors, sometimes a knife.

The only thing that stops me doing it more often is keeping it from my wife. Every time she has found out in the past she's got very cross. I am supposed to tell her if I feel like doing ...

Haven't done it in years... Relapsed... Felt good... I'll probably end up doing it again soon... Not sure how else to cope with this pain... Nothing else is working for me... Still having suicidal thoughts... Been thinking about *mod edit* when everyone goes to bed... I love and appreciate the people who have supported me and I don't want to hurt them but I'm feeling increasingly less stable as the days go on... I want ...

I have given up. I no longer even try to fight my urges anymore. I know it's bad but it's the only thing that works for anything. I don't know why I'm typeing that I'm just lost.

I've had enough and can't take anymore.

Seriously considering what to write as a goodbye to someone.

I feel so low. So tired. So screwed up. Plus so much more

Sorry. Guess I feel broken beyond words.

Thank you ALL for all the support though.

I'm truly sorry

Take care