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I've searched around online and I can't find anything that sounds like its what I have.
There are things in my life where I've made up a lie, and I begin to believe that lie is actual reality and that's what actually happened. Sometimes I know deep down that's not the truth but i still believe that lie i made up is true. I don't mean to lie, nor do I want to lie, I ...

This may sound weird, but I've never been able to actually talk to anyone about this. Sometimes sexual things trigger me into a horrible panicky state, where I shake and feel nauseous, and on the outside I go into a horrible rage, and may even scream at the person I'm with at the time (ESPECIALLY if it's a boyfriend), storm out, etc. It's the worst feeling. I feel sad, scared, and angry all at the ...

I notice most people with borderline personality disorder become instantly infatuated with specific people, even on a first date. I have the exact opposite problem. I make friends with the opposite sex but stay indefinitely in the "friend zone". It's probably my own doing as I have no impulse to initiate any kind of physical affection. I'm also mostly asexual and have never had a strong desire to "get laid" like men are supposed to. ...

Hi Everyone,

I am new to this forum :D but sadly not new to BPD. I was for most of my life at home bringing up children but now they don't need me anymore ( feel abandoned) I have tried to build a life outside the home. I have had several jobs in the last ten years and have walked out on every one of them. ...

I guess it's part of my wavering personality. My weak sense of identity. Sometimes I see people, or meet people... and I wish I could trade places with them. For a week. For an hour. Anything. I want to have their life. I want to have what they have. I want to want what they want.

Perhaps everyone feels this way once in awhile, when they see someone beautiful, privileged or however. But oddly, I ...

My mom stopped by, and apparently her cancer has advanced quicker than they expected. When she was diagnosed a few months ago with leukemia, her white blood cell count was 32,000. It is now 60,000, and they think by january it will be 100,000, and they will want to start treatment thereafter. She's in her 70's.
My mom is considering it, but a family friend who was cancer suggested buying a number of supplements to ...

That's how I feel anyway. Everyone, everywhere, inevitable blah blah blah. The more people know of me, the less they like. I can't keep anyone. They always find out sooner or later that I'm no good.

It crushes me.

At work lately... it feels like everyone turned against me. I've been trying to get a promotion... they criticize my personality. I had ONE person sticking up for me. One person. Someone who ended up getting ...

Ok,is it me or is whatsapp just a massive pain in the .... ?
Seeing someone has read your message but not replied is so frustrating! I would delete it but it's free to talk on :/
I've just starting seeing a guy and the usual insecurities are coming up. I'm jealous already and it's so EARLY. Obviously I am acting normal and hiding my insecurities because he would bolt a mile if he knew. ...

Why can't I have just one f*cking hour where you shut the hell up, don't talk to me, and don't look at me? Sometimes, I just wanna sit in my corner and browse the web on my phone without having to speak to anyone or hear anyone/anything. It's called: being a grown-ass woman and needing some alone time now and then. I can't even masturbate without you looking at me or touching me. It's a ...

Im wondering, yet again, if Im borderline. I don't have all of the symptoms but I have many of them:

Black & white thinking: My bf says I have this, and had this ias a teen. Our relationship has been a roller coaster to some extant. I swung from loving him and wanting to be with him to being annoyed or angry and wanting to break up. I did this for months. Also did this ...