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my problems: i always feel guilty for mistakes made in the past, have acted impulsively, obsess about who i am, what i am. i haven't had a job for 4 years (i'm 25, almost 26) and the days just go by so fast. people say i don't do anything all day, and i think i have a full time day, but the truth is i'm just thinking about my problems all day. at the end ...

its funny to have travelled in every direction and down every single road but the only thing that has moved forward is time. To still move back and forth and left and right. Life can be a bottomless pit when it feels as though all you do is fall down, down and down again but maybe it is us that needs to decide that we have hit the bottom once and for all and its ...

hello

still feel uncomfortable posting here eeeeeeeeek

a while ago (about a year now ) i found a long lost cousin , well she was never lost , i didnt know she existed :?

We hit it off really well talking lots on msn and i confided in her and she really seemed to understand me. She mentioned coming to see me , which i pinned hopes ...

Well, I consider that I've been pretty docile for awhile, but last night I spazzed out and created a huge conflict and hurt my bf. Not physically, but mentally.

He went to a work function and was drinking with clients (wasn't entirely wasted like last time, last week when he had to stay over at a hotel), but nonetheless, I was furious that he was having drinks and such SO LATE at night with someone ...

Hi there,

This is the first time i've ever written on a forum- so please forgive me if this is not right or whatever. I just need some help and have no one to turn to, as I was sexually abused by my dad at the age of 12. But my dad and myself have only just learnt that my dad has BPD with a schizophrenic element, at the age of 43. He has two ...

Well, with anxiety in full gear, my habit of running away from my problems is kicking in. Every emotion is rapidly going through me over and over. Don't know if that's bpd or bipolar. Don't care. Whatever it is I want to run.

ahh. finally.

this is the way to be, see?
if only they would reply, sooner to me.

if only if only.

if only it wasnt unhealthy, if only it didnt run in my family, this is the way i would be,


but it worked for bukowski, so why shouldnt it work for me?

Right now im in the process to get a job threw BVR. (bureau of vocational rehabilitation/ to help me get and keep a job) That will take a couple more months, Im working on being independent, I have NO clue how I'm going to do this or how this is going to turn out. I have a case manager who isnt really informational and a vocational specialist i was meeting up with and then stopped ...

I feel really, really guilty talking about this, but...

I am having major problems resisting cheating on my boyfriend. I guess it's because...

-Our sex drives are so markedly different in degree, and I always take it personally whether I want to or not.
-I'm separated from him now for days/weeks at a time (which seems like CENTURIES) to me.
-I almost never feel romantically loved and recognized as a person unless I'm having sex ...

I'm having a bit of a hard time here coping with, you guessed it, some abandonment issues.
My best friend of a few years and I had recently entered into a (quite transient) relationship. He, much to my dismay and not unmet by great resistance, recently (2 weeks ago) decided to end the relationship. This was bad enough on me, I spent days upon days laying in my bed miserable and letting myself think I ...