How are you today thread (trigger warning)

There was water all in the bottom of the fridge today so we came together to defrost the fridge freezer and also make the call to GP surgery about our medication levels being too high (from the blood test results) and pay the contents insurance so some parts understand there is more to fronting than just walking the dog and playing video games all day! ..also got a load of washing done!

We will be given a lower dose and retested in 8 weeks...just have to wait for new prescription to turn up now, they told us to skip today and let the levels drop a bit...we start the lower dose tomorrow.

I hope that they come to understand that. I have an alter who wanted to be host and front a lot only to realize when it came to actually dealing with things, it wasn't very nice all the time.

She still comes close to the front from time to time though, but she's not fronting any more.

As for me, I'm still sorting things out. This is a complex mess in some ways. I'm also dealing with family issues. Finally flat out told my sister about my DID and she asked if one of my alters would be willing to come and clean her house since that alter actually does that kind of work here. It was her way of joking about it and making me know she loves us all.

ViTheta wrote:I hope that they come to understand that. I have an alter who wanted to be host and front a lot only to realize when it came to actually dealing with things, it wasn't very nice all the time.

She still comes close to the front from time to time though, but she's not fronting any more.

As for me, I'm still sorting things out. This is a complex mess in some ways. I'm also dealing with family issues. Finally flat out told my sister about my DID and she asked if one of my alters would be willing to come and clean her house since that alter actually does that kind of work here. It was her way of joking about it and making me know she loves us all.

Thank you for answering. I'm glad your sister responded positively to the news.

I am wondering if this forum is 'triggering' for us and 'Bobby/Lee' seeing others describing 'their systems with one main one posting (for most of the time) when they're already kinda locked in 'fight or flight mode' due to our medication being too high and many of the symptoms of it being too high are also the same as most women get in peri-menopause so we automatically assumed it was just that and we were having a rough time with it.

I'm wondering whether to drop out of the video game study too incase that is also proving to be too much of an overwhelming trigger right now.

Yuna

Well, Yuna and Bobby/Lee,

I hope your medication will be corrected soon. We are new to the forum, so we're still learning a lot of etiquette. Right now, I know that I'm the one posting the most, but I know that Beth and Pippa have too. The more comfortable we are here, the more each of us will talk in our own voices. Some of us may even introduce ourselves fully.

Yesterday, Sele stressed the system out by fronting in a panicked manner. She felt she had to get something done and didn't want to wait. She had to get a ritual done to protect the house, but at least this next time she won't stress us out by forcing her way forward.

ViTheta wrote:Well, Yuna and Bobby/Lee,

I hope your medication will be corrected soon. We are new to the forum, so we're still learning a lot of etiquette. Right now, I know that I'm the one posting the most, but I know that Beth and Pippa have too. The more comfortable we are here, the more each of us will talk in our own voices. Some of us may even introduce ourselves fully.

Yesterday, Sele stressed the system out by fronting in a panicked manner. She felt she had to get something done and didn't want to wait. She had to get a ritual done to protect the house, but at least this next time she won't stress us out by forcing her way forward.

Thank you. Sorry I missed this one! I am just out briefly to get back on to the gp as they did not deliver the new prescription that day or the next. Kit said to let levels drop, she stayed out at weekend and didn't take any. (Its thyroxine so takes a while for levels to go down)

I'm tired but we feel calmer. Just waiting for GP to message back, they never did say whether we were meant to start the lower dose immediately whilst waiting for the new prescription or not! and we got some CBD oil to try for Bobby as it seems to have had good results with calming autism meltdowns, it's worth a try. I have noticed a reduction of the volume of the Tinnitus already just from letting levels drop down over the weekend. Maybe the Tinnitus was causing everyone to switch a lot as no-one could tolerate it for too long out front? Being immersed in video games seemed to be the only activity where we forgot it was there until we stopped.

Anyway hopefully it will further reduce as the levels drop further and then stabilise and we will all feel much calmer and much less irritable with each other! Fingers crossed!

Yuna-

I'm glad you all are doing better. I can imagine how exhausted you're feeling right now, but I'm also glad you stopped by to let us know how you are doing. I am hoping that things are alright in the future as well.

Vi.

I'm morally and emotionally exhausted.

During the last outing at the beach, one of the participants was a girl half my age (the one who in June told me I could not be a guy before asking repeatedly for my phone number, which made in retrospect her dating harassment even worse) who kept being awful to everybody: she yelled at the people who wanted to borrow stuff from others (but kept asking others for stuff), was constantly grumpy when the group was doing something she did not want to do (such as grabbing a coffee while she wanted to go shopping), yelling and crying each time something was not going her way, and running around like a Roomba to follow her own ideas leaving the group behind - to then scream at the group for not following her and not doing what she wanted to do. She also threw sand into my meal because she just not care that there were people around her.

Organizers told me that I was harsh with her and that I should be understanding of her mental health.

Well, how about MINE? Or the GROUP'S?

My boyfriend is moving into his own appartment. Or at least trying to. He has the keys since like 20 days and his parents keep on making things difficult, breaking his stuff or damaging his appartment, complicating everything, refusing that other people come inside the family house to help him move out... And he is too disabled to circumnavigate around his parents. And I am too far away to help, too poor to cross the country secretly to come to help secretly. Also I don't have a car and his family house is not accessible without a car.

This is slowly eating up my mental health.

Atop of that, some of my money help were removed this month. It's an error from the system but since it's summer time, nobody can fix it before septembre. Great, how am I going to eat this month? I guess I'll just open the "half price food going bad tomorrow" apps again then. Hurrah. "Going bad tomorrow" cake for my Bday it is. Unless my parents send me money. But then I'll have to text message them "thank you" else they'll harass me through phone to get a "thank you".

I'm stressing out so much that I piled up 1,5 kg (3,3 pounds) in less than a month because I just cannot stop eating. Maybe it's a good thing some of my social help money is cut down this month. It will help me shed the additional weight by encouraging me to starve myself. Cannot binge eat if I don't have the money to buy food. /sarcasm

In the meantime I have the other issues that are never ending such as the kitchen issue and other similar stuff. Not in the mood to list them all. I don't want to add insult to injury.

I'm feeling very very down. I know it will pass but in the meantime, it sure is as pleasant as seating on a cactus with a mousetrap snapped shut on each finger and toe.

Arbremonde,

I do hope that things will work out. It is awful that you're boyfriend's parents are acting like that, and you're right about the woman acting out like that. The people running the group should be worried about everyone's mental health as well.

take care,
Vi

ArbreMonde,

We're also sorry you having a bad time. We hope things get better for you soon too as you're always so supportive to everyone else and we haven't forgotten all the advice and support you have given our system, particularly in this last year.

from all of us

Thank you all for the moral support. It means a lot. I'm feeling a bit better knowing that you are all listening and being nice and supportive. I'll take a break for a few days, focus on my well-being, watch some movies on Disney+ (things like Coco and Moana (Vaiana in my country) and Soul and Encanto and Inside-out (Vice-versa in my country) and others) to raise up my spirit. To remind me that problems have solutions if we take the time to communicate and focus on our well-being.

Thank you again for your presence here and thanks the mods and admins for this board, which is so important for me.