Did I switch (and for now obvious reason)?

I'm not really sure how to put this or if I even remember it right, but it was this feeling that I got a few days ago.

All of sudden (I don't remember what I was doing or anything like that), I felt as if my heart kind of like... stopped? Well, it was more of a feeling of not breathing... Not like I felt like I couldn't breathe (I wasn't panicking), but it wasn't uncomfortable. It was more like 'oh, I have to remember to breathe' if you know what I mean? Then I also felt like... I don't know really, but I felt nausea/as if I was falling/weird. Very hard to describe! Anyone gets it?

If I remember it right, I was in my room doing something at the computer (things that I normally do). I'm confused about this whole thing, since you usually don't switch unless there's something that triggers it (?). And I have never switched before (can't be a 100% sure of it, but not as far as I know of), so I'd appreciate any thoughts you have on this.

it's possible that you switched.

these threads might be interesting/helpful to you:

-- Co-consciousness & Co-hosting?: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic99350.html

-- Switching Symptoms (Possibly Triggery): http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic102917.html

-- Long vs Short Switches: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic103012.html

-- Not losing time or blacking out, what's wrong with me?: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic97504.html

-- DID without amnesia? (the "main" content is on pages 2-3): http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic95529.html

-- Is anyone like this in their DID?: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic93929.html

-- Is this normal in the DID world?: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic97249.html

-- I can't switch: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic101893.html



- cassie (age ?)

quick reply from somewhere else.

I think I know the feeling. There are quite often situations in which I forget otherwise automatic things. Not breathing, but for example, I go to the toilet and have to remember to do my thing, so to say.
That is often when I just feel really weird. Something like you describe.

Switches aren't always obvious. And the trigger may not be obvious too (it can be really anything).

-us?

tomboy24 wrote:it's possible that you switched.

these threads might be interesting/helpful to you:

-- Co-consciousness & Co-hosting?: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic99350.html

-- Switching Symptoms (Possibly Triggery): http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic102917.html

-- Long vs Short Switches: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic103012.html

-- Not losing time or blacking out, what's wrong with me?: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic97504.html

-- DID without amnesia? (the "main" content is on pages 2-3): http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic95529.html

-- Is anyone like this in their DID?: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic93929.html

-- Is this normal in the DID world?: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic97249.html

-- I can't switch: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic101893.html



- cassie (age ?)

Thank you for the links!

oaktree wrote:quick reply from somewhere else.

I think I know the feeling. There are quite often situations in which I forget otherwise automatic things. Not breathing, but for example, I go to the toilet and have to remember to do my thing, so to say.
That is often when I just feel really weird. Something like you describe.

Switches aren't always obvious. And the trigger may not be obvious too (it can be really anything).

-us?

Happy to hear that someone gets some of it, at least. I can relate a little to the toilet-thing. Sometimes I go there and once I'm in the bathroom, I don't remember why I went there... And then a few minutes later (if I don't remember it right away, in a matter of seconds), I remember what I was going to do. I ask someone pretty often things like "what was I going to do again?"... Don't know if that has anything to do with switching/dissociation/anything like that?

I forgot to write it in my first post, but I don't think I switched fully, if you know what I mean. After that feeling that I tried to describe, things went back to normal.

MeAndWings wrote:And then a few minutes later (if I don't remember it right away, in a matter of seconds), I remember what I was going to do. I ask someone pretty often things like "what was I going to do again?"... Don't know if that has anything to do with switching/dissociation/anything like that?

AFAIK this is pretty normal and not necessarily dissociation related. I have it quite often.
More like, things that I normally do on 'auto-pilot' then suddenly don't get done at all and I have to consciously do them.

MeAndWings wrote: I ask someone pretty often things like "what was I going to do again?"... Don't know if that has anything to do with switching/dissociation/anything like that?

I have really poor memory retention which means I forget what has been said to me within seconds. Or I forget what I am going to do. I will walk around a supermarket for example and be reciting to myself: milk, sugar, flour, but then go blank at least 50 times and have to keep asking whoever I am with. The way I see it is there is so much going on inside all the time, so much "consciousness" used up there, that I, as the host, get very little. I live minute by minute with no memory of much at all. So yes whilst this is normal for people to walk into a room and forget why they did so, when it just gets silly and dysfunctional it is more related to dissociation.

-B

bourbon wrote:So yes whilst this is normal for people to walk into a room and forget why they did so, when it just gets silly and dysfunctional it is more related to dissociation.

I agree. Just like many other symptoms. It's mainly the degree that makes sure it's related to dissociation.