There's an interesting comparison between when I talk to people verbally, and when I post on the forums.

They seem to have trouble understanding me because of my ineptness as communicating, and I always feel like my input is useless and means nothing to anyone.

I registered thinking I was finding a place where I'd fit in..... nope! Of course not! It just serves as extra evidence that I don't fit in anywhere. I'm too god damn different for this world. Too ###$ up.

Besides, it was idiotic to think I can help people. I've never even lived. Everyone else on this forum has done more in their lives with me; for one, most of them have lived longer, and two, they've gone out and experienced things. I've done jack $#%^. You know why? Because I don't know how to ######6 do anything. Guess where I am? Still right where I started. My first post, where I talked (mostly about what an absolutely unforgivable hell of an experience school was, but also) about being completely lost in life and having no idea what to do - I'm still there. Adds extra hopelessness to what was already hopelessness.

Seriously, nobody gets it. Nobody understands how different I really am. I can't even explain it. There are so many weird things about my mind works and how it affects me, many of which are things most people wouldn't understand if I tried to explain. And I'm given the exact same expectations as everyone else. Forced into the system - do it, or die. Well, I am very, very tempted to not ###$ around with that $#%^. I resent the world for forcing me into this. For leaving me with no opportunity to ever become anything without following the same ######6 stupid #######4 process that could never let me in. Seriously, this is leaving me without a ######6 choice.

Fit in as much as anyone else does, here...