I followed through with deleting my FB account, fighting a few strong urges to cancel. I feel neither proud or ashamed, I just feel nothing about it other than some occasional sentimental recollections which don't get to me much.

In 11 days my brother will be in South Carolina for what I believe will be the duration of Spring. I think it's 13 weeks but I'm not certain.

I have a cousin who was recently released from jail for the second time in his life. He's basically been on the inside for as long as I can remember. A long time ago (Probably 2003 or 2004) he was incarcerated as a teenager for bringing a gun to school, not because he was like one of those lowlifes who commit mass shootings but because he was bullied and that was his method of revenge. My dad told me about it a long time ago and as is so often the case I don't recall every detail, but I believe he didn't shoot, he just held someone up. He was released a few years later and went back in 2010 because he loaned money to some guy who didn't pay him back. I know about that from a court document I found online. Like the first incident, he was armed but didn't shoot. The last time I saw him and the only time in my relatively fresh memory was at my grandfather's funeral in that year. He completed an 8-year sentence and my dad says he wants to have dinner with him some place. I don't know what to think of it, he was locked up for so long I don't know what to expect, but throughout the years they all said he was relatively optimistic for being in such an awful scenario and opted to get out early by parole, although that didn't happen.

I've juggled many ideas about what I want to do with my life, but at this time I have one I believe I can settle on. I've had a lot of uncertainty about whether I'd prefer a desk job or something more physical, with my conflicting opinions being that desk jobs are too sedentary and that physical jobs would most likely be involved in noisy environments that I wouldn't like. But I'm beginning to get sick of this writing, so I'm done.