This semester has been so crazy and so busy, I've already been to the hospital because of it. I'm on a very small dose of lithium and doing great with it.

I'm getting married and I want a Christmas wedding. Not just a wedding in December, a wedding with green and red and holly and berries, garland, lights, the whole thing. Like a giant old fashioned log cabin Christmas party. My mom hates this idea. She says none of my siblings can come. I'm not changing my wedding date for them. They're 20 years older than me, they live on the other side of the country, they have never been part of my life, except for one of my brothers. Who is invited, and should attend.

I haven't sent out the invitations. It is October, the wedding is December 22, everyone says this is too early, except my mom. She is going to order new ones just to send to my siblings. I tell her not to, I will send them out. I have been having a bad day, so I change my face book status to say she's a effing b and I'm eloping. Bad move.

What should happen: I realize this is wrong, apologize and my mom accepts and we move on.

What happened: According to my mom everyone is mad at me and she is telling them I have a metal illness and I can't control my self. ( I can so. This is not an excuse for my behavior.) My brother, who may be bipolar and now lives with my mom calls me and scolds me like a 12 year old. (I am 22, thank you. You are not my father nor have ever been part of my life. Good big brother may scold me. Crazy Big Brother cannot.) I get a bunch of emails from my mom explaining how she will have nothing to do with me or my wedding or my senior recital coming up because she will not be where there is evil, and all that comes out of me is evil. She is going to sell all the wedding stuff she bought for me and my dress. She cannot sell my dress, it is in my possession.

I email her and say, I am sorry for my bad language it was inappropriate. She emails me back and tells me to call her. I don't have signal, so I wait a few days until I'm home (I was with my future in-laws). I'm about to call her, but I think to check my email again. She tells me I need to apologize in person and online on facebook for everyone to see. She goes on how she hasn't been eating or sleeping and all this.

My mom put 5 of her 6 kids in foster care because she had a drinking problem. She's been married 4 times and had an external marital affair. Except for one (and now me) all my siblings talk to her. And she looses sleep over this? Seriously?

I did not call her. I understand what I said was wrong. I really don't like my mom because she's been guilt tripping the crap out of me for this whole thing. It's not a simple lecture on how this is not appropriate and all that stuff, it's a huge ordeal as if I wrote a whole book on everything she's done.

My future mother-in-law, who is a wonderful woman, helped me pick out a new location, new invitations, and other things these past few days. And it was fun. It was what I wanted.