I found out today my college band director is leaving. I feel horrible, it's happening again. My high school band director left and we went through three teachers in two years. I feel like I've been tossed into that cycle again. We're not a big university, it's not like someone is going to step up and we just keep going as usual.
But the difference is we've been hiring some pretty intense and good faculty. Maybe we'll hire someone really good and it will be ok. I only have a semester left in band. But my band director understood my problems and gave really good advice. I don't really feel I can talk to anyone my own age aside from fiance. It's stupid really, I feel like I'm being deserted. Mostly because when my high school director left, my dad was sick and eventually passed away, and any good friends at the time went their own ways. High school was just really lame. I really hope college is different. I'm scared of graduate school, I'm scared of teaching.