Tue 7 February

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will, not mine be done.
Amen
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Doesn’t matter what I think.
Doesn’t matter how I feel.
It matters what I DO.
Don’t tell others in the 12 step fellowship what you think today.
Don’t tell others in the 12 step fellowship how you feel today.
Tell others in the 12 step fellowship what program work you’ve done today.
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Remember everyday: Keep repeating “God’s will” OUT LOUD as much as you can. Even if you can only whisper or mouth it. Failing all that say it in your head but whatever the case constantly keep saying it!
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God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results in terms of my happiness and peace of mind. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking.

I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if I can only quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.
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God, make me an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
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Yesterday I made some outreach calls in the morning before work and managed to actually get through to 1 person. I also updated this journal. Listened to a 12 step speaker audio on the journey to work and listened to some more of this during my lunch break. Repeated “God’s will” in my mind a bit but could have done this more so will do that more today. It was difficulut to make fellowship outreach calls at work so I sent some text messages to people asking them how they were getting on with their stepwork. Saw my sponsor after work to do stepwork. Did some stepwork when I got home after I ate and made outreach calls, getting through to speak to 1 person.