Tuesday 3 January
3 weeks, 3 days sober.
RR 100%

God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.
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Yesterday evening I had a few times where my mind was ruminating and analysing things more than I would have liked to. Also when I woke up this morning I had some brief sexual fantasy thoughts, they just popped in there and I think I handled them as well as I could have. Something for me to be aware of. Based on all this and how far my last 2 relapses occurred into a period of sobriety, this next 5-10 days could be a really testing time in terms of me staying sober so I'm planning to really step up the meetings over the next week. Planning to go to a 12 step meeting a day for the next 4 days.