Meh, figured out the eating thing finally. My t tells me it sounds like something called night eating syndrome. Seems to me like my circadian rhythm is just messed up all the way around. We have been making sure to eat and to document a bit so that we don't all eat ice cream and no one eats anything healthy. Also bought some protein shakes and stuff like that for when none of us is willing to take the time to even make a sandwich. It's not a lot of food or calories, but there are a lot of vitamins and minerals in them so hope to keep those things at a healthy level. We're prone to a few different vitamin deficiencies and then that really effects the body.

The kids are mad because so much has been going on that they haven't been out in a long time. We've had a lot going on that they shouldn't and couldn't handle, but that means they lose out on doing the things they like and then we all feel a bit down. I think that's just some emotion bleeding through, happens when someone is feeling something very strongly. We'll be able to set aside more time for them shortly, but at 7 and 11 shortly isn't soon enough.

I lost a week myself, which doesn't happen a lot anymore. Carol blocked me out because she knew that I would not let her do what she was doing. We're having some serious money issues because we have one income in the house and 4 of us living here. Finally hubby and I took out a loan, mainly to get the car back. When I came back around the money was gone. All that money, and most of it was spent on drugs. Now we owe all the money we did before and we have a loan payment, not to mention how we feel physically after taking in all that crap. I sure as hell hope she had fun, because we're seriously screwed. Not just us, but the whole household. I'm seriously so angry and I don't have any way to deal with that either right now. It's just too much pressure all over the place. I just want to curl up in bed and sleep forever. I'm so sick of this.