I'm/we're actualy feeling rather down at the minute. Kaz was just feeling a bit suicidal due to some sports guy just found to have killed himself. It triggered her into thinking, why not just do it and get it over with? Wondering whether it was worth saving herself the bother of suffering any longer than necessary when no one seems to want to help.

Frankly, it's pissing me off. Who the f*ck are they to deny us treatment? To make us live in turmoil and suffering? It's f*cking ridiculous and downright f*cking selfish of Dr. Cockend to refuse to treat us and pawn us off onto CBT when that is clearly NOT what we need, just so he doesn't have to deal with us.

I think I might just go to all our appointments now. I have the confidence to tell the twats what I really f*cking think. And how are they possibly going to tell me to my face that we aren't multiple if I'm telling them I'm SOPHIE, not T, and that even the host hates being called T.

F*ck it. I'm just gonna go all f*cking out and not take no for a f*cking answer! There's no f*cking way that any of us should ever have to feel the way that we do - especially poor little Sophie and James.

Soph xxx