I am gonna use this blog to vent. Right now I am in a stormy relationship with a girl that suffers from borderline personality disorder. I have borderline traits myself (not diagnosed though) and right now it seems to me that a relationship with 2 people that share borderline traits can be very difficult at times...Comments or adivce is greatly appreciated.

For the past few weeks I've been in quite a good mood despite all the issues we've had. But slowly but surely I am on my way back to depression. Loss of appetite, tired, pessimism, loss of interest in anything and just in general I am starting to get ######6 tired of everyday life..It's always the same..

Not good, not good. Maybe I should tell her..She was unavailable today and just went to bed (without saying "good night" ofc), so I just sent her a nice message that she'll probably take notice of tomorrow. "I am ######6 losing my mind here.."

So either she takes the time (her time seems to be highly valuable. Smoking weed etc are very productive activities that will certainly help to prepare for her new situation (soon to be put in foster care and moving to a new city away from her family and friends to start a "new life"). She told me she's "busy with herself"..WTF?) to have a talk if she cares so much about the relationship or I am gonna ######6 freak..Who the ###$ is she hanging out with all the time? I was the ONLY person who was there for her when she was in the mental hospital and now she's hanging out with all these "weird characters" who will abandon her as soon as she moves away from there..

But hey, when she's moved away she'll realise that. Maybe I am gone at that point and she'll realise what a big mistake she's made to neglect me.