I find I'm growing detached from other people. I no longer relate at all to common concerns. Things like health or finances, or even mortality, no longer produce any emotional reaction in me.

I figure that present concerns are predicated on having expectations and hope for the future. You care about your health because it will affect your future. You care about money because you want to have enough to afford the things you'll want and need in the future. There is an implicit causality in the things we concern ourselves with in the present.

But I have no hopes or expectations for the future. My life is completely void of meaning or purpose. I am simply waiting to die. So why should my health matter? If I ran out of money I'd simply kill myself. I would lose nothing and avoid unnecessary pain. That makes sense, doesn't it? I guess I do have a concern: pain amelioration. But that's it.

This complete lack of comprehension for normal considerations extends to others as well. I can no longer comprehend why someone would care about the grades their children are making or how they're doing in sports or guitar lessons or whatever. I no longer understand adults' concerns about their jobs or relationships or their favorite sports teams. I no longer understand the difference between things going great and things going poorly. It's all the same to me. Life is completely hollow. Whether someone's children, or themselves, become CEOs or homeless bums, my mind honestly no longer discerns a difference. Life is completely meaningless. It is completely devoid of anything positive. Everything is the same. I no longer understand the difference between any two sets of conditions. I'm probably depressed.