Okay, this is weird. I remembered that when I was 13ish, I was part of some spiritualist forum where they all believed in spirit guides and all that crap. I joined in, I followed all their guidelines in order to try to 'talk to' my guide. Now, I remembered actaully talking to this guide in my head. I couldn't remember what he was called though so I hunted dwon the website, here is my post:

"I just tried to meet my guide by clearing my mind and visualising myself of the beach. I imagined an energy force and I kept asking it questions like I had read on a few websites. I said 'What is your name?' and the name Peter instantly came into my head. When I had been there for a few minutes my hands started to tingle and I felt as if they were numb, but when I opened my eyes they were normal'.

It's weird because, before I revisited the forum, I couldn't remember this, but now I can. I used to talk to him in my head at school etc. Also, the "tingly, numb hands" is something I get when someone's switching or trying to switch now.

Also another weird thing is that, around this time, I started having memories that weren't mine. Memories of combat, fighting in British DPMs, guns. But the memories seem to come like I was suffering some type of PTSD. at the time I was really interested in teh military, in the air cadets, wanted to join the army etc. First time I ever shot a rifle the officer was extremely impressed. I also hated Germans at that time too. I used to rant about them and WW2. It seemed unreasonable.

Oh well. Got a letter today from Dr Anderson saying she would keep me updated about the second opinion. Hope they hurry and I hope the new psych is decent and doesn't ignore me and twist my words like the other one.

Jodi x