Today was mixed.

I slept a lot compared to recently. Close to 8 hours - that's about average for me, I guess.

I had trouble getting up. I think I was catching up on the sleep I had been missing.

Today was my step-dad's birthday, so we all went to eat and shop.

The eating wasn't bad. It was pretty fun, actually. We went to a hibachi grill (first time for me). The chef was cool/entertaining, and it was interesting to watch how the food is cooked. It was REALLY cool. I would definitely go back, they are just so expensive. The food tasted great.

Other than that, being around my family just seems to make me more crazy and in a worse mood. Of course, I can't blame it all on that. The change in the sleep pattern probably shares at least some of the fault. Plus, I didn't take any Zyrtec in the morning. I ended up taking a few Advil that were int the car with pseudoephedrine, but they are mostly antihistamine (I think I took about 70mg pse total from it), and I didn't feel too energetic, but it did help a little and relieved most of the allergy eye and pain stuff. I can't tell the proportion of blame.

As far as the family goes, everyone is just so neurotic, and it feed into itself. It isn't directly bad, just generally negative. The parents get frustrated easily, both at each other/us and at the environment. I guess you can't really avoid negative thing from happening and having to talk about them. Still, everything brought up seems like it has a problem with it. They aren't really conversations, just one person talking about something, and the other person pretending to listen or pointing out how there is something dangerous or that the person won't like about it. The common body language is being impatient or frustrated. It feels like there is tension and no one is really fully connected. Maybe it is normal, but I really don't like it. I would rather be alone than around them.

Even still, maybe it is in my head. Maybe they are all happy and connected as could be, and I am just failing it for some reason. Either way, I know it isn't a pervasive problem with me because I CAN connect to others, especially as I have learned recently. Some friends, some professors, I actually feel a connection to when talking, and the conversations flow like they should or everything somehow seems genuine. When I am with my dad and my step-mom, it is genuine enough; even though they have substantially less money, we are happier and have fun and joke around. When I get away from these people, the problem should be solved. Of course, I am still going to have to deal with them occasionally. Maybe not much if I am lucky. Maybe it will get better the more I am away from them/as they get older.

I have been having fun with SSF4 AE

I suck so *very* *very* bad at it, but it is fun to see my own progress. To go from not being able to even do anything correctly other than hitting the normal attacks to being able to to Hadouken about 7/10 time to being able to to better things like air moves, supers, and pretty consistent Hadouken moves (but only in training mode ).

I tried to do a few online fights. One of them was against a pretty high-ranked person (6th on their character, I think. The bottom rank was 6 and the top one was in the 100s) and I got decimated. I didn't even get in a hit, ha ha. Another one I set to find someone else with low skill, but I still got beat 2-0. Its a cool game, though. Fun to play. I really like the flow of it.

The medicine is still awaiting the check to reach the place. I guess it will be a month or so before I get the stuff. I am looking forward to the selegiline. I am wondering if it will have much of an effect and if it will be positive. I am also interested in the anti-histamine coming (the same one as the guy was taking in the electric shock thread). I look forward to seeing if LDN is legit at all. Patience is a virtue, I guess.

I was in a pretty bad mood after getting home, but I am a bit better now.

--I forgot to mention, I watched "The 5th Element" last night. I thought it was great. Especially the acting of the girl who played the 5th element was really good and she was very attractive IMHO. Actually, I thought that, despite the silliness of some of the characters, the characters were pretty good. The architecture was awesome. I would love to live in an apartment like the main character's. It was a great "light" movie.