Today was not so great.

All I had was chem lab. Sociology was canceled.

My lab partner got back her test (she took a retest), and she didn't do well. With the grade she had, she wouldn't be able to get up to an A. She dropped the class because of that. It is understandable. She said she has a 4.0 gpa and doesn't want to make any B's. I would have done the same thing.

Funnily enough, I wasn't overly sad when she said she was dropping. I was trying to be careful to be understanding and everything because she said she felt bad for leaving me alone, and I didn't want to make a big deal out of it and cause her distress.

I feel kinda funny. I think it is something like dissociation or derealization. I just feel disconnected. I don't know, she was the closest thing to a friend I had. I still don't really feel sad, just kinda empty or something. It is going to be lonely without her. It is like a friend moving away, although I don't really think we were that much of friends, but I became kinda attached to her.

I want either a hug or to cry. I really don't feel too good, but I have homework to do.