Today was pretty great. I felt really good.

I think that the sulbutiamine really does help.

It makes me feel very confident, like everything is going to be good. It is possible that it is just mood swing effects, but this is different than other swings. I feel constantly calm and collected. I think it wears off pretty much completely after about 7 or so hours, weakened after 5 hours. Today I redosed after I got home (at about 3:00) to see if I was correct or if it was just getting tired or something.

Lab went well today. Sulbutiamine helped, but isn't the only reason.

It just feels good to be in that class. I feel like everyone accepts me. The chem teacher is awesome. They don't treat me like a strange, quiet person. There is a noticeable relationship between the class, and I am included.

My pal from calc talks to me in the class.

Yesterday, I had an actual kinda-conversation with him, the most interaction with anyone at college so far.

I can feel myself getting healthier. I don't know if it is because of facing my fear of rejection or the sulbutiamine. I think it is both. I just have to keep an eye on tolerance for the sulbutiamine, but so far it is the best supplement I have ever taken if this is its effect.

My chemistry teacher said that her boss (my student adviser) said that he was impressed with the fact that I had made a 4.0. That was a huge ego-boost. If I was being talked about in a good way, that makes me feel great, and the fact that the chem teacher cared to tell me makes me feel kinda warm.

My mother has been in a pretty foul mood recently, though. Today I got yelled at for leaving the livingroom light on (there are 4 light bulbs in it, and money doesn't grow on tress. Think of all the power I am wasting). It isn't too bad, though. I know how to deal with it, and I can retreat to my room