Gotta stow my baggage. Get ready for the crazy train trip tomorrow. Maybe I will be transferring if I am lucky.

Tomorrow. I plan on calling her or texting her and telling her to call me when she gets the chance. It looks like she is busy today, so I am not going to bother her now.

I have been planning what I am going to say.

Something like http://www.gliffy.com/gliffy/#d=4220010&t=Conversationflow

Of course, the conversation isn't going to go like that. It just makes me feel comfortable to write it out, ha ha.

The thing that is bothering me is, if it was a date and it had went well, we should have made another date by now. So, either 1. It wasn't a date, or 2. It did not go well.

Honestly, I don't know which one to hope for.

I did take some sulbutiamine again today, 1g. I don't know what to think. For the first few hours, I felt dizzy, but then I feel good. I still feel really good and focused/calm. The thing is, Within the first few hours, I seem to pee it out, or at least something to that effect because it smells like it, so I don't see why I feel good afterwords. Maybe a bit TMI there.

Still haven't talked to my mother. I don't know. I wish it was last year again (approx 1 year ago), but I was how I am now. Everything would be fixed. Or at least I would get hugs again. Or the part where she ran her fingers through my hair. Oh my god, I want. Or at least the part where we play-argued about pronunciation of voiced 'th'. On 2nd thought, I wanted the butterfinger. Also, I would have drank from the Dr. Pepper, I just thought it was flat because it was old, it wasn't a thing of not wanting to share drinks. Walking to the snack machine, locked arms, would be the best walk in the world again. Those where the times. I can't believe I was such an idiot. I almost want to read over my old entry(not on here) I wrote where I listed most of the stuff. I think it may be too much, though. I don't need anything to get me even more worked up. I think I remember all of it, anyway (well, I guess that is a bad thing in this situation).

Guilt and wanting are two emotions I could do without. An episodic memory wipe of the past few years would be nice too. Unless I can succeed.

She tried to be persistent. So should I. I wish I could get over stuff like normal people can.

Oops, chart should be here
http://www.gliffy.com/go/publish/4220010/