A lot actually happened today, but I don't have too much time, so this is going to be a quick post. I need to go to bed.

First, I was going to chem, and I opened a door, and I was kinda spaced-out. There was a girl right in front of me who had gotten to the door first. I paused for a moment, and then walked through the door after I had opened it. Somehow in my mind, I was thinking I was going to hold the door open as I walked through it so that she could walk through behind me, but that is obviously impossible, and I ended up just pausing at the door for a moment and walking past. I felt like either a jerk or an idiot. I guess there is the "I didn't mean to", but it was still pretty stupid of me.

Then, I did pretty poorly on the chem quiz. I made an 78. It was a basic concept that I thought I knew, too. I just made a lot of mistakes and was one of the first ones done. I normally make some mistakes, but this was like half off on 5 problems, so I need to be more careful. I feel ashamed, but she said that we will redo it, so i don't know what that says about what other people made. I just need to focus more. Today was a bad day anyway.

Then in soicology, I did group work. She put us in groups, so it was not so bad, but I did not talk much. I did manage to talk some, though. I didn't do a good job of connecting to the people. My speech seemed distant somehow. It is difficult to explain, and it normally doesn't happen. It felt like I was a robot or something. The group members were pretty nice, though. The person who was writing asked me my opnion on a few of the questions because I had not spoken up. Then they were talking about fast food personally (the assignment was about childhood obesity), and they were all saying how they eat fast food because of their schedules, and then she asked me "what about you? Do you eat fast food?" and I said "No, not often, I just wait until I get home and eat microwave food." in that robot type of voice. That was a pretty lame and unrelating answer. I don't even know if it made much sense because I don't know how many people call it microwave food. But at least I didn't add "because I am afraid of buying food."

That is about it. I will do a post tomorrow about my nootropics Hopefully I will be feeling sharper tomorrow, too.

[quote="brainslug"] First, I was going to chem, and I opened a door, and I was kinda spaced-out. There was a girl right in front of me who had gotten to the door first. I paused for a moment, and then walked through the door after I had opened it. Somehow in my mind, I was thinking I was going to hold the door open as I walked through it so that she could walk through behind me, but that is obviously impossible, and I ended up just pausing at the door for a moment and walking past. I felt like either a jerk or an idiot. I guess there is the "I didn't mean to", but it was still pretty stupid of me. [/quote]

I feel like the awkward door situation happens to me way too often, Is he opening the door for me to go through? Or is he opening the door for himself from a weird angle and I will look like a complete ass if I walk through? But what if he is being nice and holding the door for me and I reject his kind offer? I kind of wish we could return to the norm where men always open doors for women to avoid this confusion....or establish a new standard norm to cut out the guessing game!



[quote="brainslug"]Then, I did pretty poorly on the chem quiz. I made an 78. It was a basic concept that I thought I knew, too. I just made a lot of mistakes and was one of the first ones done. I normally make some mistakes, but this was like half off on 5 problems, so I need to be more careful. I feel ashamed, but she said that we will redo it, so i don't know what that says about what other people made. I just need to focus more. Today was a bad day anyway.[/quote]

If she is redoing the quiz that probably means a lot of other people made mistakes too.


[quote="brainslug"]Then in soicology, I did group work. She put us in groups, so it was not so bad, but I did not talk much. I did manage to talk some, though. I didn't do a good job of connecting to the people. My speech seemed distant somehow. It is difficult to explain, and it normally doesn't happen. It felt like I was a robot or something. The group members were pretty nice, though. The person who was writing asked me my opnion on a few of the questions because I had not spoken up. Then they were talking about fast food personally (the assignment was about childhood obesity), and they were all saying how they eat fast food because of their schedules, and then she asked me "what about you? Do you eat fast food?" and I said "No, not often, I just wait until I get home and eat microwave food." in that robot type of voice. That was a pretty lame and unrelating answer. I don't even know if it made much sense because I don't know how many people call it microwave food. But at least I didn't add "because I am afraid of buying food."[/quote]

Lol, I like your last sentence and looking on the bright side There is always something worse you could have said! I always secretly thank people who ask my opinion when I say nothing. One of my struggles is interjecting myself into conversations, so it is basically giving me my in and my chance to be heard and included. (Except for the times when I have nothing to share, then I secretly despise the person who called me out on being quiet!) I think everyone can understand what you meant by microwave food and it was connected to the topic enough. I think we analyze what we say ourselves way more than anyone else does...one of my problems is that I will be nervous speaking with someone and mess up what I am saying (switch words or switch syllables), then freak out in my head that the other person is judging me, then mess it up again because I am extra nervous. I am pretty sure that other people are not keeping track of all my mess ups.

[quote="rootbeer"]
I feel like the awkward door situation happens to me way too often, Is he opening the door for me to go through? Or is he opening the door for himself from a weird angle and I will look like a complete ass if I walk through? But what if he is being nice and holding the door for me and I reject his kind offer? I kind of wish we could return to the norm where men always open doors for women to avoid this confusion....or establish a new standard norm to cut out the guessing game!
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Ha ha, yeah. I always wish there was a key word or gesture or something that was obvious and noticeable, or a standard like you said. It can be confusing. Sometimes, as a guy, I think "am I supposed to hold the door for her, or would that look overly nice, or like I am flirting with her or something (actually when I typed that out, it seemed strange, but I think that a lot, and so I normally keep away from eye contact if I hold the door just so it doesn't freak her out or something, ha ha.)

[quote="rootbeer"]
Lol, I like your last sentence and looking on the bright side There is always something worse you could have said! I always secretly thank people who ask my opinion when I say nothing. One of my struggles is interjecting myself into conversations, so it is basically giving me my in and my chance to be heard and included. (Except for the times when I have nothing to share, then I secretly despise the person who called me out on being quiet!) I think everyone can understand what you meant by microwave food and it was connected to the topic enough. I think we analyze what we say ourselves way more than anyone else does...one of my problems is that I will be nervous speaking with someone and mess up what I am saying (switch words or switch syllables), then freak out in my head that the other person is judging me, then mess it up again because I am extra nervous. I am pretty sure that other people are not keeping track of all my mess ups.[/quote]

Ah, I do the same things. It just seems like there is never a spot open for me to jump in, and I don't want to force my way in. I also feel the same way about people calling me out. I think you are right. Most people don't seem to be too concerned with our little mistakes that we are so concerned about.