Last night was tough. i only sleep two to three hours at a time. Once when I got up, I went to my computer to see if my therapist was online. I didn't want to talk, I just wanted to know she was there. I couldn't get into the website for some reason, so I tried again. I kept trying and the more I did the more scared I became. it started to overwhelm me. This didn't make sense because I didn't need anything to begin with. I became desprate and started posting all over the net where ever I could find asking for help, I can't reach my therapist. Thinking about it now makes me feel a little stupid. What was someone going to do? Call her house?
It got to the point I started rocking, shaking, and crying. All I could think was do I cut, stab my leg or commit suicide? That doesn't make sense at all. Why was i so upset that I couldn't get into a website to just check to see if someone was available? I finally stayed on this site until someone answered. Cracked really did a great job of calming me down and getting me back to a normal state. I could even see it in how I was typing. I went from single words to phrases to sentences. It is so frustrating be this emotional sometimes, over nothing.

I am so sorry you went through that and I am glad I was able to help.

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That must have been so hard. Thank you for sharing this.

Thank you. I am having a difficult time right now.

well if i can help just PM me. Sometimes it just nice to chat with someone who has been thru it as well to some degree. Keep sharing hon.