Ok guys,

So today I want to share my 3 months GF, so my first big mile stone is just around the corner, the 100th day GF!

It has been quite a ride, but with this forum's assistance I have made it through! I still have a lot to deal with, but I think that for now, my gambling urges are controlled. I've seen that what really triggers me is thinking in getting a lot of money quickly. Its is not just about trying to catch up for all the losses. I've been trough that. What is lost... is lost. And by actually acknowledging that, made me able to stop.
Now I have a couple of objectives, being one of them, and the most important, help my family. Since I stopped gambling, and after paying my debts, I was able to assist my family, whenever they wanted, without thinking twice. Another thing that is changing, is that I'm actually saving money! I've closed that leaking tap, thas was consuming all my available money and credit!

I still need to solve a couple of issues in my life, but for now, I think I getting back on the tracks.

As I said, now i just want to achieve the 100 day mark, wait for my next holidays (which will start in mid decemebr) and enjoy the holiday season, in a way i haven't for many years!
Then I'll work to get to the 200th day, and so on.

I dream of the day, I say 1000th GF! (and immediately set a new target!)

Regards

[quote="lookforward"]Ok guys,

As I said, now i just want to achieve the 100 day mark, wait for my next holidays (which will start in mid decemebr) and enjoy the holiday season, in a way i haven't for many years!
Then I'll work to get to the 200th day, and so on.

I dream of the day, I say 1000th GF! (and immediately set a new target!)

Regards[/quote]

Hi all,

So I just wrote it in the Days GF thread, but I'm going to include it in my blog as well.

I did manage to achieve the 100 days, actually i went over 120, and my holidays were being quite enjoyable without that constant feeling of needing to gamble.
The problem was when my GF had a talk with me then we decided to break up. We were together for 5 years, but the flame was long gone. She feels that she was imprisoning me and in a way she was, but i still didn't to break up with her.
This breaking up, was the bad trigger I was trying to avoid, and the same way, she was after me, the main reason for me to fight this, it turned to be one of my biggest triggers...
In the same day i registered in a new online casino that was always poping up in commercials... and in 4 days, I consumed half of what i had saved.
I was able to stop, I said to myself the "grief" has ended, and I can't let my self go down the drain again. I didn't hit rock bottom. And that is the only positive way of this. I cant say as well that I was in control. Ultimately I stopped where i draw the line. The problem was i draw it several times, but above sea level.

Just earlier to me writing this, I stopped, and planned a new recovery plan, for the next 120 days.

I did it before. I'm going to do it again.

Keep strong. Try to enjoy your life. I will surely try it as well.