Hello all

I've decided to start writing in this blog, instead of keep posting threads. I've been here only recently, but so far I'm keeping myself GF.

In fact it has been only 8 days since I've registered here, but I'm really trying to make this work. Once i started looking at so many of you that were fighting just like I am, and I realized that so many of you have some events that i can relate so much and that we suffer in the same extension, I looked at the positive posts, of guys that are overcoming this problem and gaining back control of their lives.
This forum is helping me see a different path.
Three days ago, i received my pay check, and yes I had hurges, but they didn't win. I went online and start doing what I had planned. Pay my credit cards.
One thing that sometimes made me gamble, was the need to make up for losses.
###$ I realized I can't, make up for those losses, and there is no point in thinking on that.
So now I am trying to focus in saving what I can. This month I'm paying for a significant part of my credit card debts. Next month I'll finish paying. I'm advancing payments because knowing that i have debts brings me so down. And makes want to play.

I will fight this in the ways I can. So I'll stop putting myself in a situation that leads me there.

And so here I am. With available money that i could use to go and gamble, but I will not go.
I've excluded myself from the online sites i used to play in.

The two latest relapses I had, was because i received emails from new sites. I will not do this again.

I'm visiting this forum every day. I was quite surprised to see that more then 200 saw my post. I just want to say to all of you who did, and specially for those who replied, Thank you.

You made my day. You "listened" and that help me so much. I just wish I had found this forum a lot sooner.

But rather sooner than later

Bye