Monday 2 January
3 weeks, 2 days sober
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.
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I wrote my own step 3 prayer yesterday and want to type it out here again today:

God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking.

I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if I can only quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.
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I think for me when I first wake up can be one of the harder parts of the day because that's when I have a lot of noise in my head/thinking. It is gradually improving though and I think when I have something definite to get up to go out for in the morning that probably helps focus me. Like today I had no plans for the morning apart from having a lie in so maybe that invited more noise on and made it harder to get out of bed.

Also wanted to share that this 3 weeks and 2 day sobriety has been complete sobriety from all sexual activity A proper withdrawal phase. I want to keep this up - I can be completely happy whilst refraining from all sexual activity and not even thinking about engaging in the latter. Just like the alcoholic who works a good programme can be happy without ever drinking a drop of alcohol again.

I've been doing better but mostly thru apathy. I'm so glad that you're actively being sober! You're an inspiration! Keep up the good fight.

Thanks Snaga, really appreciate you reading!