A bit of background, in case it's helpful. I'm a nineteen-year-old lesbian, and I've never been in anything that I'd call a real relationship. I am a sexual masochist. I've come to terms with that some time ago, and while I sometimes wish it could be otherwise, I'm mostly all right with that.
Where I run into problems is dealing with the fact that I'm emotionally masochistic as well. The part that terrifies me most ...