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Today seemed pretty difficult for me. I started crying a few times just out of no where and then it would turn off. While driving I get so depressed about things. That I considered driving my car full speed into a rail guard. But this is nothing new to me. I have these thoughts often and a voice in my head tells me to "cut the $#%^!" I wish I would just die some days. ...

I moved back to the place where I grew up. I really tried to forget my old life, this place, all the people I knew... but I had nowhere else. I won't be here for long but... it's already been too long. I'm staying with my mother. I don't like her at all. I really, really don't. It took me years of not having contact with her before I stopped having nightmares!
And other things ...

Long story short. An ex of mine was going to leave her boyfriend and move to Seatle to be with a guy she was taling to for years. While she was telling me all the details I felt a slight anger inside me. Ofcourse it was jealousy. I was hopingher and I could reconcile since I never stopped loving her. I ws happy for her and told her you need to do what makes you ...

What does this do? does ths force my alts to write down things? I am a little confused.

Well among my other mental problems I am now pretty sure that I have 2 little peeps in my head that like to cause me troble. I know the difference between right and wrong, but after really looking into this and researching I believe I have DID. I was in denial for awhile and I just ignored the signs thinking it was me just making poor liffe choices. Besides the voices in my head I ...

This is so random. I'm sayin this mostly cos I know you've seen A Clockwork Orange before.
I watched this film for the first time yesterday and guess what? The whole section where he's in the testing laboratory was filmed at my university! Haha. That reception area is actually our computer centre entrance :P
ALso, I'm a bit freaked out about watching films in the lecture centre ...

As I've been reading this forum I've come across a lot of things I can definitely relate to, especially the types of alternate personalities. I guess the circumstances which create them tend to make them somewhat comparable? I don't know. I haven't read a whole lot about DID.

I'd still like to tell myself that it's probably normal to have some degree of multiplicity in my personality. I try very hard not to think about... ...

so im settled in at home and everythings much better now. i've stopped getting triggered by the sight of an empty appt. and my kittens are adapting to the new home just fine :D


oh and bates this bit of randomness is for you

My husband is unable to effectively communicate with the alters. I told him that it is a good idea to do the journal writing, but he gets pissed and complains that journal writing doesn't work, nor does talking to them. He has terrible headaches that has him doing all but crying, and he ends up having to lie down and just sleep. :( .He's on his 5th ...

that one keeps talking to us and dosen't want us to be here? we don't understand and want to understand? why why does it try to end us like wednesday it tried to take us away? we don't understand at all,
Pepper