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You Are a Hunter Soul

You are driven and ambitious - totally self motivated to succeed.
Actively working to achieve what you want, you are skillful in many areas.
You are a natural predator with strong instincts ... and more than a little demanding.
You are creative, energetic, and an extremely powerful force.

An outdoors person, you like animals and relate to them better than people.
You tend ...

I feel extremely overwhelmed.. Fighting seems to ease this. I feel as though I have to push someone away, to push everything away. I feel as though my walls are caving, and I can't breathe. I'm aggitated and agressive tonight. I feel like punching a wall, driving into a tree. Or into oncoming traffic. I feel like vandalising something, breaking windows, stealing a car, making someone else's life hell for just a moment.

I'm feeling ...

I was put on Haldol yesterday to help with my rage fits. The last time I took it was at 6:45 p.m. last night, and I'm still a twitchy mess. I'm noticing some involuntary movements in my legs, hands and tongue. They're not major, but I just hope the side effects wear off after a couple of days of not taking it. It's embarrassing! It has happened about four times since I started typing this ...

I've never had any friends. Never. Never, never. Never anyone to count on or trust. (except one time when I was 23 for about 5 months. That's when I discovered I had bpd, because of it's realtionship ruining qualites.) Now I'm going to be 26 in a couple weeks.

When I think about what it means to be happy, I think friends. Having something to do with someone you like to be around. When I ...

So, I ended up inpatient at the local psych ward because I completely flipped out over a comment that made me think my ex was already seeing another girl. I had been insecure about his relationship with her almost the entire time we were dating. Seeing that comment just validated me feeling insecure about him seeing her, and in my head, it validated my fear.

The comment was "I'm so excited to see a sexy ...

When I lash out and start to push people away it's not because I hate them, it's because I've been hurt and my anger along with pushing them away keeps me from being hurt more. Although it still hurts, because I miss them. I just don't want the hurt to be more than it already is. (I feel weak and pathetic for writing that because I'm a 42 year old guy)

I'm in dbt, and ...

My parents have given in to taking me to a psychologist.
Before I wanted it a lot to help me, but now I am getting a bit antsy.
I have been to a counselor/therapist before, but for something stupid/not to do with my real mental health.
I am just wondering what to expect and what will happen the first few visits.
I think my parents are going to be there for at least the first ...

I've already been diagnosed with clinical depression as well as severe anxiety and OCD...but I feel like what I've got is more than that. I'm getting really confused. I know I shouldn't be searching for a label for myself but I know when I got it for my OCD (which I had to drag out of her) it made it so much easier to deal with. I'm not saying that everything that has a label ...

Ok, so im analysing again...everything..i hate it when i do this :?

The last couple days i think my mood has been changing to depression :( Im just trying to work out why...things seem to finally be calm, no arguments with the family...uni going well...getting my finances slowly sorted...but yet now...this...feeling just??? sad, fed up, tired, lonely, emotional...

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acceptance, affection, assurance, attention, consistency, definition, empathy,
encouragement, evaluation, expectation, explanation, necessity, praise,
recognition, sensitivity, supportiveness, trust, understandings, validation

reason for existence & sense of security

People who can give me those make me unstable, because I am afraid that I lose them.