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Last night I told my husband that everything feels like it is life or death for me. Should I live or die? He said that everyone goes through hard times and they make it through. He said that he had no idea how to answer me. I think that he thought that I was upset about our finances, but that wasn't it. He was preoccupied and didn't seem to take me seriously, when what I ...

I live in the house where I was abused/raped ... sometimes I fantasize about it burning down. To be honest. I'm not okay tonight. Tonight I am tired of fighting. Tonight it seems too hard. I've cried and cried about what has happened, trying to get through the grieving process. But I'm tired of fighting. When I fight, I overcome ... but sometimes ... I just wish every day wasn't a fight ... every time ...

End of pity party.

And melodrama.

:)

Recently this week I began to mutilate my wrists with razors.



Is that normal?

stupid

I'm going to be taking the official MBTI through my school's career services. Up until now, I've used this site (which I believe to be fairly accurate) to check my personality type:
http://similarminds.com/embj.html
This website gives you your Myers Briggs Type (and percentages of each of the 4 subsets) as well as your Enneagram (with descending order of percentages of applicable other types).


My Enneagram type almost never changes. ...

Do borderlines have long-term future plans? What are they? Have you achieved any so far?

. As if anyone cares lol <3 ya'll sorry about that

I'd like to start a thread about recurring dreams. I keep having bathroom related dreams, like I need to pee and I find a bathroom but all the commodes are already dirty (or in use) and the like. Last night I dreamed that I was doing laundry in the laundry mat that had those upright washers that you could see your clothes through the front of it. Well the machine was filling with water and ...

I don't know who I am at all. I know my favorite color, movies, songs, etc. I know I have 2 wonderful kids and a loving husband. But I don't know who I am.

It's like I don't exist at all. I'm just a body going through the motions. My feelings don't mean anything because they're not real. I'm an empty person and nobody knows that. They all think that I'm "real." My parents are ...