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I have read that young adult onset is pretty normal for BPD, but I am not really sure if this is just because they won't diagnose it in adolescents, or what.

Is it common for BPD symptoms to kind of suddenly start rapidly worsening at a point in someone's life? Or for other people reading this, have you always been very BPD-behaving?

I had a lot or all of the personality elements of BPD as ...

Lately, there's been a lot of threads on love and it's got me thinking about my perceptions.

What does self love mean?

How do I love myself when I don't see anything to love? The idea of loving myself is so foreign that I can't comprehend it. It seems in order to love yourself that you'd need some sort of external validation from others. If a lot of people like me and like being around ...

What is the one song you can relate to? Mine is Oceanlab - On a good day.... here are the lyrics

Little bit lost and...
A little bit lonely
Little bit cold here
A little bit feared

But I hold on
And I
Feel strong
And I
Know that I can

Getting used to it
Lit the fuse to it
Like to know who I am

Been talking to myself forever, yeah
And how I ...

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so utterly devastated by the terrorist-like nature of this emotionally-crippling ailment. Often times I'm 'fine'--other times, like now, I'm so completely fragmented, angry, and wanting to lash out at everyone. Lately, I've been having horrible episodes that are costing me my relationship with my boyfriend, and I honestly have no idea as to how to remedy the problem. On Halloween, we went out to grab a few ...

Hi all, newbie here. First post. I am not DX'ed with BPD yet, I believe only because I haven't found a doctor knowledgeable of BPD.

I have read a ton of stuff on BPD and am cautiously excited, because I have been feeling terrible for YEARS, and have now found that I am not alone in specifically what I feel.

A little about me: I have always felt empty. I've never had a sense of ...

My boyfriend is out hanging out with his friends. While I'm sitting here, in my bedroom alone, hating myself. All of my friends would only hang out with me if I had sex with them or if I drank alcohol with them. I was foolish to believe that they were still my friends once I got out of the hospital. None of them care. My boyfriend has friends who care, and he's abandoned me to ...

I don't know where to post this, or where to start. But it doesn't matter. Onward.

Questions: How does one separate the true self from the false self? Then, how do we combine the two to make for the ultra person? That's what is affecting me. Want some examples? Okay.

There are 2 sides right? The light, and the dark. So, how do I know if I'm light trapped in darkness, or darkness hidden by ...

I feel like there is a part of me that almost isn't me. When I get really, really pissed off, it's like all my thoughts and emotions switch instantly into pure anger, and all I want to do is hurt the other person as much as I can. All empathy disappears, as well as all fear. And yet my mind is much faster,and knows exactly what to say to"win". And it's such a rush, it's ...

"Some things you do just to see
How bad they'll make you feel.
Sometimes you try to freeze time,
Till those thoughts are a blur of spinning wheels.

But I am just a broken machine,
And I do things that I don't really mean.

Long black night, morning frost!
I'm still here, but all is lost!

Speed up to the precipice,
And then slam on the brakes!
Some people crash two or three times,
And ...

I'm in so much pain right now. I can't believe this is happening to me again. I haven't felt this bad in months.

My new boyfriend just dumped me suddenly and for no reason! Things were going perfectly I thought. He gave no reason for me to believe he was unhappy or anything was wrong. He was always complimenting me, asking me about our future, telling me how great I am, how much he is ...