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I dunno, but drinking sends me hyper. It can be hyper good or the opposite hyper bad. Obviously the hyper bad isn't full of enery but the hyper "good" makes me talk and talk. It often ends in me saying too much and embarassing myself but it sometimes feels like the only way to get "high" legally. Like, it gives me energy?

No, I'm not drunk now, it was just an observation.

Some days I cant handle it any longer. My emotions are all over the place. I'm taking out on people -one minute I'm happy the next angry, the next fearful. Now I just want to hide and sleep.

I don't know if anyone can relate to this, but I have had Body Dysmorphia since I was about 8 years old.I have done the craziest stuff in the name of it, and it has completely ruled my life. However, I am so scared to lose it because it's obsessive compulsive rituals help to control my emotional instability. It's like drugs to me. Has anyone had something similar- a disorder that is harmful to you, ...

Obviously we're emotionally sensitive. I mean, that pretty much sums up being BPD. I'm just wondering how changeable other peoples moods are. I can be fine(ish), hear a sad song and suddenly become a devastated wreck :? I'll be laughing and joking and maybe slightly manic and all of a sudden become completely furious about literally NOTHING. I know this is a part of BPD but i've ...

I'm starting to freak myself out a bit. I get along really well with my DBT therapist. She's absolutely lovely and understands me better than any therapist ever has. Obviously this is a positive thing but I'm starting to worry about when I leave therapy. I know it's ridiculous and it's nearly a year away! But I can't imagine not having her there to talk to about all my s**t ...

I am honestly very depressed and sad right now. I believe its because its time to go inside and
accept and love myself and to connect with Spirit. And I there is a fear stopping me from looking
within. So my outsides are showing up as depressed, lonely and disconnected. And I'm overeating
to quell the angst I am feeling. And it creates a vicious cycle.

There is no where to go anymore except for ...

After reading online I believe I have BPD, specifically the discouraged type. I have no idea how to proceed from here and I discovered BPD while right in the middle of a very depressed phase, where I feel like turning to alcohol as a coping mechanism, but I really don't want to become an alcoholic. I used to think I was just very lazy, and though that still might be the case I have reason ...

OK. This is my struggle.

I am a hardcore food addict. I am physiologically addicted to sugar and flour and some other
trigger foods. But my Borderline Thinking gets in the way of my recovery.

1. I am torn between two 12 step programs to help me but I don't go to either

2. The black and white thinking makes me restrict too much then I binge

The deal is I know I have to ...

What do you all do that lessens the symptoms and gives you some peace?

One of the behavioural symptoms of BPD is "frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment"

In my world this always begins with a feeling that something is wrong or that I am alone. Paradoxically this results in my feeling like running away, distancing, disappearing, or pushing away people that I care about. I engage in the behaviour that will actually bring about the feelings or result I most fear. Unreal/Real.

How does the "avoiding ...