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I am currently going through the detoxification of being in an abusive relationship with a person with BDP. I have been through hell and back with this man but for some reason I stood by his side and love him. Even took him back many times. I've been pushed, shoved, had a knife pulled on me, been degraded as a person verbally, messed with emotionally, bruised psychologically, I've been kicked out our home that we ...

For over 20 years, I have been living with a wife who suffers from a pathological need for certainty (she is certain irrespective of facts to the contrary) and projective identification. While I knew something was wrong for a very long time and that I had to walk on eggshells around her, it was only last week that I was given the above information by my teenage son's psychiatrist. After he met the two of ...

i'm having a really bad day. i feel so out of control and miserable.
i just want to be 'me', there is part of me that has identity - i have goals and dreams and desires and i know who i am, but i keep losing whatever that small piece is that i should be clinging on to and nurturing and developing.
don't you ever feel like this is all so much bigger than you? ...

For so long I put this intense pressure on myself to socialize, thinking that I needed to do this in order to be normal and acceptable (stuff from my mother). I think I am finally beginning to let go of this, and realize that I will talk to others when I am ready. But what I am noticing is that when I am interacting, it is as though I become overstimulated. My body starts to ...

I'm not sure what's the appropriate forum for this. I'm throwing it out here since there's a large mix of personalities, interests and backgrounds.

What can it possibly indicate if you're seriously disturbed by visual patterns? Even as a kid staring at certain patterns, say something wicker, would fill me with rage. I came across this image today. The pattern (nothing to do with the fact that it's flesh and wounds) has just screwed me ...

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Hi,
I'm not diagnosed as having borderline personality disorder. My counselor, who has helped me a lot, hasn't given me any sort of diagnosis that I know of. She told me she uses DBT and CBT in our sessions. The reason I'm posting here is because I can really relate to many of the stories from people on this forum. For the first time I'm reading things by people who think like I do. When ...

I just went to the Mental Health Matters forum, and since I'm still learning about my BPD I decided to check that section for personal experiences. What I found instead at the top of the list was an article called Punishment and Revenge in BPD, by AJ Mahari. Now I understand that she is a professional and that the subject she addressed is very common in people with this disorder, but the article basically says ...

ten days ago I went to emergency because I was feeling very suicidal. The trigger was when my husband was invited to a birthday for his mother (his siblings put it together as we live in another city) and I wasn't sure if they intended to invite me as well. From there things went downhill very quickly. I talked with a mental health and told her my suspicions of BPD. She explained how if there ...

Hiya.

I'm really struggling with sleep depravation :(

I get to bed and it's obvious the anxiety is me worrying I won't sleep.

I just lay there for hours on end, what seems like an eternity and then feel like hell at work all day.

anyone got any words of wisdom, can recommend any drugs that don't make you feel even worse all day?

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