I miss it. The big wins that led to big losses. The false lies that is was great when in reality it was good for about 1 Percent of the time I was doing it. Then it led to anxiety, depression and anger. It's so awesome that I remember the good, which was very little, and forget the bad, which was 99 percent of it. Racing thoughts, sleeplessness nights, lies and worry about paying people back money which I didn't even have. The personality changes that would have made me look bipolar, and the change of identity several times because gambling ruined that " person " I was. I miss wasting a decade of my life because gambling was so cool.
Yea gambling was awesome hey. Not. What a waste of time, energy and money that was. What a waste of myself.
Don't ever kid yourself and say it was good. Because the good always ended up bad and you can't just remember the good thinking if only. The bad happened and always will. Don't pick the good because in gambling there are good and bad and it will always be bad.