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Things that weird in my life.

New boy-interest-thing.
There's no giddy excitement or anything. I'm just like "oh, it's Ben. Neat."
Where is my giddy excitement that I love? It's my favorite part of seeing someone new, and it's just not effing there.
It's really annoying and mildly depressing.

Also... weird things keep going on...
Like last night I spontaneously decided to make Vodkaide and get trashed.
I don't drink. Like ever. It's not my ...

(Posted here as bpds have been known to do the silent treatment thing.) How do you tell the difference between someone who needs space and someone who is giving you the silent treatment?

At the moment I'm not really talking to anyone because I have a lot to sort out in my own head, am emotionally drained and just need space. I've even not replied to people's messages before because I've just felt like I ...

Just wondering if anyone has ever filed for disability benefits for their BPD. if so, were you approved? If not, what were the reasons? I just applied. I'm never going to feel good about being in public, I've developed a weird phobia of being in a car, so I don't see my working as being a possibility. But I have heard it is almost impossible to get disability due to a mental illness. Thoughts?

Today was my birthday. It eventually turned out good. :) I like when days end on a good note, 'cause then that's how I remember them.

Being pregnant is making me more crazy. xD I get mad SOOOOOooo much, and I feel like it's unfair that I have to be the mature one around here. Pfft... I should be the one stomping around and complaining all the ...

This whole lack of identity thing was starting to get to me. I'm sure many ppl here feel similarly, but I didn't see my parents as viable role models growing up. In fact, I tried my best to do the opposite of what they did.
Then I started reading up on Malcolm X, Ghandi, and MLK... and started incorperating their values into my own.

As a BPD'd individual, I find it very easy to "slip ...

do you explain to someone you are trying to get close to the reason of the way you act, without scaring him away? When your mind is blowing things out of proportion and you know it's wrong, how do you convince youself? How do you protect yourself, from yourself...? I'm kinda young, and just need guidance and a friend who won't judge me :/

It seems that for me, it's been forever...
As far as i remember, i ###$ all my relationships with other because of my temper...
I was a sad child, i was lonely and craving for affection, i was a liar, a thief, i would throw myself from my bunk bed to try and break my legs, i started taking pills to kill myself in secondary school, i would swallow them till i puked than swallow ...

I have a new... interest person boy thing...

I have opted to not really go into detail about... well, most things.
I told him I'm crazy, but not what or how severe or anything.
I told him I previously had a drug habit, but not that went so far as to hook to get money for it.

Now on one hand I feel like he should be warned.
I mean... I'm batshit levels of crazed ...

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I’m seriously concerned about my boyfriend who is suffering from various mental conditions plus chronic illness. He has been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, depression, bipolar disease and also has experienced hallucinations. Moreover, he has multiple health issues like severe slipped disc in his spine and neck, recurrent severe pain in his leg with unknown cause that sometimes leads to paralysis. He is only in his early 20s.

He has ...

I saw my regular MD today, I actually do not even have a psychiatrist anymore. When the mental health center discharged they told me not so nicely that there was no reason why I could not just get my meds from a GP. I did agree at the time, but now I am not so sure. I am still having trouble finding the right antidepressant and/or the right dose. If I take enough Cymbalta, it ...