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I am so hard on myself. I feel that I must do everything perfectly and be the perfect person for me to be allowed to exist. I can't even begin to do things perfectly, so I am in a perpetually guilty and intensely fearful. I feel so guilty that my husband is supporting me financially, I just feel that I am lazy and worthless. I am beginning to come to terms with the fact that ...

I dont want to die.,?.?..! But I dont want to live in this crappy ######6 world any longer. Its $#%^! Im $#%^! Being a human being in this place is $#%^! I wish there was a planet going spare! I would move me and my son there right this second! I hate that no matter what happens,where we live,who we know,who I pretend to be..i wil always really be me. Just me, pathetic me. I ...

I want to know if any other males with BPD has this in common with me:

I hate normal girls, or girls who have their lives totally in order. Relationships with them are so fragile because at any moment they can just decide they're no longer happy with being my girlfriend, even though I myself am happy, and so break off everything. Rationally speaking I know this sounds utterly insane but I feel like the ...

Hi everyone~ I'm new..

Something has been bothering me lately. I have been noticing my inability to really care about another person, especially when going through an 'episode'. It's almost as if they aren't truly another person to me, just something sentimental like a teddy bear or something that I don't want to lose. I really want to show people that I love them and cherish them, but it almost seems forced because there is ...

!@#@ the world, I hate you.

I'm working on my BPD Collar Comedy Tour 2011 material. Here's what I got so far.

Don'cha just hate...when you're locked in yer room...crying. Cuz the world wants ta....to see ya suffer. But ya left yer gosh-darned pizza pocket in the microwave?!

*APPLAUSE*. *APPLAUSE*

Divorce on horizon

A stint in the psych ward

My children love me but do not like me

No choice but to live with soon to be ex husband till I get on my feet (mentally beat down by him every day)

Rage is gone for the moment but replaced with the deepest despair I have ever known. Leaving me crying at any thing someone says to me. Cant leave house because can't stop crying. ...

To the women and men here who are officially diagnosed BPD, how did you pull it off? How long did it take you and how were you diagnosed? Are there certain tests you took or did you see specialist doctors or anything? What did it take to arrive at the right diagnosis? And to the diagnosed men here, how did you manage to receive your BPD diagnosis without being labeled a psychopath? This is something ...

Back to business...

Stayin' Alive (lyrics)

Yeah, I'm drunk. Kiss my ass.