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The first girl I kissed, little did I know there was a dark side to her. She was so sweet and kind, made me feel like a king, like a God. I could not stop smiling around her, as I was over-basked in emotions and her becoming my light in this dark world.

Things took a turn, her step-dad, who I believe had ASPD, and her mum, who was definatly a borderline, suddenly hated me. ...

because my mates avoid me atm i am getting a minilops dwarf rabbit in a few weeks <3 She is adorable i am putting a deposit on her tomorrow because she is too small to leave her home yet. Its not going to relieve unwanted thoughts/fears and depression and being alone etc but i hope she helps a bit ..... we live in an apartment so she has to have a hutch with a bottom ...

I really really think I'm right and I'd like you guys to give me your opinion.

Abandonment is my main issue. I call people VERY often. Like once every hour if they're home and once every 2 hours if they're working. It helps me to have a 30 second phone call and know that they're okay and that they still love me. Now if someone doesn't answer I'll get very worried and upset and not ...

I hate being volatile my anger is so explosive and intense and inappropriate and my aggression is impulsive or i want to be nice and patient but i can't handle being in crowds and become confused and accidently snap or go the wrong person and feel immediately bad or embarrassed after that. But if someone goes me back or questions me or anything i tend to arch up back i am likely to have my ...

I came across this poem and I thought I'd share. I'm not a religious person, but I found it comforting.

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that ...

I feel like it is very BPD-relatable. And enlightening... as most of their songs are.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2O-BwV0DDUY

Thoughts?

Lyrics:

Roll away your stone I'll roll away mine
Together we can see what we will find
Don't leave me alone at this time
For I am afraid of what I will discover inside

you told me that I would find a home
Within the fragile substance of my soul
And I ...

I wish that i could have enough guts, or less of a conscience to commit suicide by my birthday next month. My head gives me so many horrible unwanted thoughts and fears and i have been the worst volatile person lately and i can't keeping saying sorry and it doesn't bring me people around to visit and care for me anyway so atm i am in another rut. Plus imovane and temazepam abuse never seems ...

I try so ridiculously hard to be nice and good, I am probably trying to overcompensate for the fact that I feel that I am so bad. It is really exhausting to fake being nice. However, interestingly enough despite all of my efforts to come across as super nice and friendly, a lot of people perceive me as being very cold. I almost never let people in, I am terrified of them getting to close ...

Hi. I never make posts like this and I feel so stupid doing it now, but I feel pretty bad since I broke up with my bf. It's only been a couple of days but I have to fight the temptation to pick up the phone and talk to him. I broke up with him, and I'm feeling really shi*ty tonight, I mean, suicidal ideation etc. I won't do anything, but, it's pretty shi*ty just ...

Please ignore my posts today. I just realized that, after posting a few replies here, that I'm having a real sad spell right now and am not nearly as supportive as I try to be. Please don't read my posts today, okay? I don't want to bring the rest of you down with me. :cry:

JB.