I dont want to die but I dont want to live!!

I dont want to die.,?.?..! But I dont want to live in this crappy ######6 world any longer. Its $#%^! Im $#%^! Being a human being in this place is $#%^! I wish there was a planet going spare! I would move me and my son there right this second! I hate that no matter what happens,where we live,who we know,who I pretend to be..i wil always really be me. Just me, pathetic me. I hate me right now! I wish I could not be me!! Arghhhhh!

I wish I didn't, but I do understand how you feel. If I got that option, my concern would be that I'd still be the same me on the new place; no new life, no new identity. I occasionally hate the rest of the world, but more often than not, the enemy is me. I'd need to find a planet that doesn't have a me on it.

I havent felt this low in ages. Now I seem to be learning to understand myself feeling like this is scaring me a little.im sure it when I feel like this that I become this different me and I end up doing something stuped...i.e-taking to many tablets. Im scared coz I dnt want to do it,bt im worried some day soon I will believe I really should. Argh! I hate feeling like this...

Honey, i understand how you feel. and i just hope it helps a little just to know you're not alone in feeling this way. I don't want to die, becuase i feel guilty, i'm scared and I don't want to hurt the people that do love me. But i hate being here. I feel no knows me becuase I don't allow myself to be myself truly and properly because i feel everyone will hate me. I feel no one understands. So yes another planet would be great Know that we are here for you xxx

-sigh- Unfortunately, I feel this way more often than not.... Please know you're not alone. --hug--

I can understand not wanting to live but not really wanting to die - i think that's how most people who feel that way end up feeling, whether its from BPD or from depression etc.

i understand wanting to get away from yourself, in a different way, but i have upset myself before because i knew the problem was me, but just didn't know what - if anything - i could do about it.

I didn't want to move somewhere with no people, but i always kept trying again in different places. it didn't take me too long (years ) to work out the thing that was the same everywhere i went, was me.

but there is DBT, there is recovery... stay where you are, and work on yourself, try to find some happiness through the inside ((((hugs))))

thank you for the reply's.xx its such a big help having this forum and knowing that there are people out ther that understand and listen.

dbt is not an option where i live although i guess i could be working through a work book or something...so that my fault, no one to blame there bar myself!!

Seeing my counsellor next wednesday, it will be 3 weeks, it has up til now been every week or 2 weeks. I find these time gaps so difficult...so much (emotionally) can go on within a day, let alone 3 weeks. I cant remember past how i feel right at a very moment in time let alone be able to answer the question..'so how have things been for you??'...like i can explain that one.

I am going away in the morning for a short break...im hoping this will do the trick and get me out of this place before i fall in any deeper.x

I feel ya!

i hope your short break helps

Thank u.im sure it will.x