Journey Thread- Ponyta

There is no way of knowing who is "right" and who is "wrong" unless you can have an outside, objective source regarding these events.

A possibility is that your perceptions of the events are right: some of you remember the earlier things and identify them as "bad", therefore identify the rest as "it got worse all of a sudden". While others do not remember the first events as "bad" and therefore remember the "bad things" as starting later (when you remember it as "getting worse all of a sudden").

It is just a hypothesis of course.

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Theo van Hohenheim.

ArbreMonde wrote:There is no way of knowing who is "right" and who is "wrong" unless you can have an outside, objective source regarding these events.

A possibility is that your perceptions of the events are right: some of you remember the earlier things and identify them as "bad", therefore identify the rest as "it got worse all of a sudden". While others do not remember the first events as "bad" and therefore remember the "bad things" as starting later (when you remember it as "getting worse all of a sudden").

It is just a hypothesis of course.

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Theo van Hohenheim.

that makes sense. thank you!

Ponyta wrote:hey so i'm cutting into our host's journey thread or whatever this is. but I have a question myself. she has no clue who i am first of all. i come from an area she didn't even discover yet. but I was spying on the others for quite some time.

Interesting. May I ask who you are? Where are you? You say you are the one hollering on me? I heard you, I'm sorry though, I have no clue where you are. I can't pinpoint where you are calling me from. Could you please give me more details? If you want to talk to me, I'm willing. Also if you don't mind, what do you mean by "your kind"? Just curious. I have a lot of inner world friends who are either animal, or "part animal" (can take human form). I mean, I'm just saying that to let you know that even if you aren't human, I still care about you. I'm friends with a lot of shapeshifters too.

If it is you who I hear hollering on me, your voice sounds REALLY far away. Sorry I haven't been able to answer sooner, I tried, I just don't think my voice was able to reach where you are, or something. Maybe that's because you say your area is detached from ours? By that, do you mean another dimension?

Sorry for all the questions. I'm just trying to better understand. I would like to talk to you, if you are willing, and if that's possible. If not in person, writing is fine. Thank you!

Well an update on inner world chaos: 2 of the 3 troublemakers were captured by the protectors. There is still one, but he hasn't bothered me all day. Probably because he knows the protectors are looking for him. I did hear that they spotted him, but he escaped.

As for Yu, he also kept his distance today. I think he realized what those 3 were doing, and he doesn't want to get involved with them, or something.

The 2 who were caught, are in the dungeon right now. The protectors are questioning them. It still depends on how long they will be there. They were already talking about letting the 1 go, because I told them that he wasn't the worst one (he was more like a "follower"). I don't know though. If he teams up with the one on the run again, it might get bad again. The protectors know that too. They are having a meeting right now (at least I think). A bunch of them went to the dungeon to "talk". One of the 2 is really bad, but the one on the run is even worse.

I found out where those two are from, they are from a totally different area than the 3rd. Plus it is an area that I didn't know about (But the protectors might've).

Yu is from yet another area, but like I said, he is keeping his distance today. I think that's only because he doesn't want to be captured (like some of the others were). He doesn't want to be included in their group, as far as I know.


Despite this though, the inner world is still blurry at places. Also it feels hard to concentrate at times. I worry there is a 4th (Troublemaker). I've been seeing scary things (almost like a scary face) in my mind every now and then. A name keeps popping in my mind, and they are laughing at me. If that is the case, then they might even be worse than the one still on the run. Might. I don't know for sure, but I would say it is a very close comparison anyway. Plus I also don't think they are working with the other 3 either. Also not with Yu.


Major note: It seems the "binds" that once separated our individual areas are weakening. Thus more are coming over from neighboring areas. Our host doesn't know about all of them yet. We are working overtime to ease the potential chaos. As much as we can anyway.

Hi Ponyta,

I hope things calm down for you, and also that your T can give you some support so you don't have to face all of this alone.

Thank you, TheGangsAllHere! We greatly appreciate your reply!
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Unfortunately (WITHOUT WARNING), we don't have a T to go to all of a sudden. Unless the mess with billing gets straightened out.

We sure hope it does (get straightened out). We didn't have any problems, until all of a sudden. We already missed (had to cancel) some appointments because of this. Plus we really like this T (A bunch of us actually feel safe talking to this T). It will devastate us if we can't get the problem fixed.

That in itself it just adding to the inner world chaos. Maybe even more so than I realize.

I do know some previous troublemakers (turned my friend) aren't happy about this one single bit. They are upset because they wanted to come out and talk on that day, and then the appointment had to be canceled. I haven't heard from them since then, I worry they are mad at me, even though it wasn't my fault. They did say they weren't mad at me, but even so, since I haven't seen them, I really worry about that. If they got upset, then maybe others did too? I don't know, but it could possibly be adding to the chaos.

I know some of the protectors are really worried about this mess. I am too. I don't know what we will do if we can't get it straightened out. That T was hard to find in the first place, not to mention how hard it is to find a new one. We really seem to be out of options if we can't see this one, so we'll probably be without any for a long time.

Wow, Emma, you are going through so much! The stress must be unbarable. I don't know what to say except "hello" and that we see your pain and grieve with you. Please do keep us up-to-date and don't be afraid to ask questions. There are lots of knowledgeable people here on PF and we do care how you're doing.

Digital hugs, if wanted.

- Marcella and the Neighborhood

Thank you, Marcella and the Neighborhood! We greatly appreciate your reply!

Need to log the fact that I'm (Well a bunch of us are) feeling VERY sad again. I fear we'll have to cancel yet another appointment with our T, because so far billing ISN'T getting fixed. It is a complicated mess. It is just lovely (Sarcastic much) that our insurance decided to stop dealing with our T all of a sudden or something (Despite us going there without any problem before). Very confusing. Anyway, they don't want to pay for us to go see this T anymore. We are trying to get it straightened out, BUT yeah, so far it is looking bad. Feeling VERY discouraged.

I don't understand why it seems to always be one thing after the other for us. Once we finally start feeling better about something, or even seem to be making progress, something always seems to happen. Either Outer or Inner world. Sometimes both. UGH!

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Plus I had a horrible dream again last night. At least someone actually helped me (in the dream). That was astonishing. Usually I have to endure the "Nightmare" on my own. I'm kinda convinced, that maybe the guy that helped me, was one of our insiders. Only because of how he acted.

Anyway, he said the only reason why he is helping me, is because I saved his buddy (in the dream). The creature in the dream, almost got his buddy before me. I pulled him out of the way. To which that guy looked at me as if I was crazy. (Well the thing was those two guys were chasing me at first. I was trying to get away from them, when all of a sudden the creature came.)

I'm not ruling out any possibility that those 2 guys were insiders. Inner world troublemakers have been messing with me A LOT in my dreams lately. I actually hope those 2 were insiders. Maybe then they would see that I care about them, even if they don't like me. I do know they reacted VERY unusual for just dream characters. So it is possible.

SOMETIMES WE HAVE DREAMS DURING THE SLEEP AND THEY HAPPEN IN THE INNERWORLD WITH SOME OF US ALTERS. SO IT IS POSSIBLE IT HAPPENED TO YOU TOO.

I THINK IT IS VERY SUPER COOL WHEN OTHER ALTERS SAVE US WHEN WE HAVE BAD DREAMS.

TONS AND TONS OF SUPPORT AND HEART EMOJIS AND HUG EMOJIS UNTIL THE PROBLEMS WITH THE ADMINISTRATION PAPERS AND BILLS IS SOLVED.

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PRIDE.