How are you today thread (trigger warning)

I realized a little while ago that we don't really trust each other to be out without supervision. We're always out in tandem, and we're pretty sure it stems from the days when Marcus could and did a lot of bad while out. That doesn't mean we can always stop each other from doing bad things, but we've worked on that too.

I'm just glad things have been worked out a bit now.

Kit has worked out how Phoenix has been able to do this..I'll put more detail in our journal.

Juno sent a message to Kathy...her and Yuna have gone in to help Kit with the 'round up and head count' as they know the inside better than myself & Kathy so they won't be returning today even if bro does turn up to finish fencing.

Some 'animal form changelings' (insiders that chose to remain in animal forms..usually remain in their own 'homeworld') are guarding the 'back door' from the other side.

Mr Woof was fine on his walk today..no limping today ...hoping we can get the fencing finished today!

Jay

Finally got garden finished in time for Easter weekend so looking forwards to sitting out in the sun!

Its been quiet on the inside ...I'd completely forgot we were so close to Easter Sunday! LS would usually come out for some easter egg over the weekend but I'm not sure whats happening with that now..as we'd bought one a few weeks back we do have one but had said they wouldn't be allowed to have control of the body or be up front for a while.

At the same time I think we need to explain what is happening with Phoenix and why...so not sure what to do now Kathy's gone back inside to consult with the others and see what they think.

Anyway...hope you all have a nice Easter weekend


Jay

Its quiet on here. we miss saying hi to people on here and reading your posts. Hope everyone is ok and things aren't too bad where you are in life right now?

Our others seem more settled at the minute. I feel I know more (of the life from the period others were fronting). We agree we should find a new more efficient way of functioning now we undesrtand this condition better and not return to the 'old way' as that won't work now we have all have awareness of each other.

A system is being put in place on the inside so 'unknowns' can't access the front to 'pretend to be host' They have to first reveal themselves to elders on the inside and 'be assessed'. This is just in case there are any others that have been missed because they are dormant very deep somewhere or something? This should give us more stability at the front.


Jay

Our life changes so little day-to-day that we don't often feel the need to come in and say anything; however, some of the things going on are just figuring out how to live as we are. Plus, sometimes we don't know what to say. Lately, we've been just in this slightly scared not knowing what to do place that we're not sure what to say.

We're also confused by someone we've been talking to. They're a fellow system and some of how they talk to us just makes us feel as if they're flirting with us even if we're not sure that they are.

Our external life is much the same daily and has been for years. It's difficult if someone asks what you've been doing and you're still mostly housebound and really haven't done anything different since the last time they saw you.

If we didn't have our dog we wouldn't leave the house, only go out to take him for a walk locally (don't have a car only our mobility scooter). I think that's why our Inner world is so important to so many of us.

Jay

This week has been a bad week, with a lot of switching going on. I tried talking to my therapist about it, but I don't think she understood. Today we are sad, yet I don't know why.

Deafgirl369 wrote:This week has been a bad week, with a lot of switching going on. I tried talking to my therapist about it, but I don't think she understood. Today we are sad, yet I don't know why.

Hi

We had a Deaf host many years ago now. I use a capital 'D'' as she really identified with Deaf culture as her culture and sign language as her culture and it was the thing back then that if you identified with the Deaf life & Culture you described yourself as Deaf with a capital D!

Unfortunately they seemed to have a breakdown due to pressure of university and then finding out we had autism. Once we understood it was more language processing issue than an hearing problem 'Thea'' seemed to just dissolve and disappeared and Kit took over.

We do have a mild hearing loss on one side now due to a stroke but me and the last host (Yuna) don't really identify with the deaf world as we've been isolated years due to pandemic and other health issues causing us to be mostly housebound.

Do you just have one deaf alter or are you all deaf to different degrees?

Jay

TheTriForce wrote:

Deafgirl369 wrote:This week has been a bad week, with a lot of switching going on. I tried talking to my therapist about it, but I don't think she understood. Today we are sad, yet I don't know why.

Hi

We had a Deaf host many years ago now. I use a capital 'D'' as she really identified with Deaf culture as her culture and sign language as her culture and it was the thing back then that if you identified with the Deaf life & Culture you described yourself as Deaf with a capital D!

Unfortunately they seemed to have a breakdown due to pressure of university and then finding out we had autism. Once we understood it was more language processing issue than an hearing problem 'Thea'' seemed to just dissolve and disappeared and Kit took over.

We do have a mild hearing loss on one side now due to a stroke but me and the last host (Yuna) don't really identify with the deaf world as we've been isolated years due to pandemic and other health issues causing us to be mostly housebound.

Do you just have one deaf alter or are you all deaf to different degrees?

Jay

We are all deaf to certain degrees. Some of us (like myself) enjoy using the cochlear implant, however there is at least one of us that will take it off and only use sign language. There isn't a Deaf community near us, for us to participate in. I have taken many ASL classes to learn what I know of for sign language. (Mara) the one that I know of for sure that refuses the CI, would love to join the Deaf community.

Deafgirl369 wrote:
We are all deaf to certain degrees. Some of us (like myself) enjoy using the cochlear implant, however there is at least one of us that will take it off and only use sign language. There isn't a Deaf community near us, for us to participate in. I have taken many ASL classes to learn what I know of for sign language. (Mara) the one that I know of for sure that refuses the CI, would love to join the Deaf community.

I think Thea only evolved because we got sent to a specialist college (to learn lip-reading and 'work' skills and it was 'live-in' and we were surrounded by other deaf-born students, some of whom had no speech) Then went to university and used interpreters & socialised within the deaf community there too to 'bypass' the inability to speak in public.

We were born hearing though a late talker due to the autism and having selective mutism (so when we could speak, would only speak to specific people...which is probably why the pre-16's still all identify as 'hearing' and feel 'the body is deaf' but they aren't cos they're still hearing teens (the body is in its 50's now). ..some are the same with the mobility issues ...they don't have arthritis the body does so they can't rollar skate and ride a bike anymore if they front.

I live rurally now and there's no one around who uses sign language, though we have used interpreters for medical appointments at the city hospital.

Jay