How are you today thread (trigger warning)

I'm sorry to hear that, HiveMind. I hope things are better today.

We haven't posted anything lately because there isn't much to say. We're working on everything. It did come to our attention that one of our friends didn't say that he was struggling a bit to understand our having DID, but at the same time wouldn't say anything.

Beyond that, just trying to keep the panic levels from being overwhelming given the fact that our government is a mess and we may not have money next week.

Vi

Haven't posted on here for a while...Hope everyone is doing ok?

We've been in a bit of a crash with the chronic fatigue..probably with Bobby/Kit been out more since the new Zelda game out and all the 'learning new stuff' involved ...new maps, new abilities for Link so new controls to master etc and had 2 outings with bro's birthday and ours fairly close together.

We've been having an heatwave too..its going to be 26c (78.8f) here today we aren't used to these temps up here! ..having to set alarm to get out so early to make sure Mr Woof gets a walk and some time to play out in the garden before it gets too hot then we come back to bed until temps go back down again...sometimes its cool by 8pm sometimes when its really hitting highs its still hot and muggy at 10pm! ..so we're having to be out around 5am to find the coolest part of the day to walk Mr Woof and get a couple of hours of fresh air and exercise before we crash again!

Today is gonna be 20c by 9am! ..so best get out in garden (we've done the walk) let Mr Woof have his breakfast outside and play in his paddling pool!

Hope you stay cool.

We're tired. All the stress of the last two weeks has made our body feel awful, which reduces the times anyone wants to come out. But overall, things are quiet.

Vi

Im doing OKe...
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Ive been in covert cognito concerning my conditions I write about here. Im in the recovery process; Most dont know me; they only assume Im one of them. IF Im hanging out at meetings dealing with drugs; Im using that place for recovery because its free and open and a few meetings per day; they will assume Im a deep ended criminal drug addict...
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If Im at meetings dealing with alcohol; More free therapy... thats how I see it; they assume Im like they are; and I have to kind of play the part.
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If its a Christian recovery meeting Im attending all the time; its the same thing...
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If its codependency meeting; they assume the same thing; Codependency is my main issue...
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ANd this goes on n on. I end up turning all these meetings into something for general mental health recovery...
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Im not suggesting I didnt have problems in each these areas; but I got the message long ago on what to do about any problems in these areas; I primarily use these meetings; at this point for mental health reason for the purpose of learning how to have a manageable life.
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Secretly its about Dissociative Disorder and developmental trauma disorder and CPTSD and so on... and Anxiety disorder... and.... The list can go on n on a bit...
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Im just coming out of Survival mode for the first time I think...
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Im doing OKE... Im still isolated.
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I have learned to interact with others to a certain degree. Ive been spending time at others homes having coffee on a regular basis at times... I dont drive; I have friends take me on little summer vacation trips.. Things like that...
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So... Im getting there..
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Im a work in progress...
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Im doing well considering...

Big hugs you doing brill

I feel super awful. Spent 2 weeks in the ward where I always feel better but since I was discharged I've been feeling worse and worse. But it costs money to be there and I need To save money To feel safer. I'm such a poor sore loser.

Doily wrote:I feel super awful. Spent 2 weeks in the ward where I always feel better but since I was discharged I've been feeling worse and worse. But it costs money to be there and I need To save money To feel safer. I'm such a poor sore loser.

Sorry to hear that...we feel safer at home where its just us and the dog, some others don't feel able to come out at all while ever there are other people about.

I had a break for a couple of days, I was exhausted trying to process new information and the constant Tinnitus... Suki took over the front and looked after Mr Woof and Little Susie.

We got some new information from the Stroke group and emailed our specialist, we got the confirmation back this morning (though they say they did tell us this information verbally at the time of the stroke) but apparently this last episode during the pandemic affected the Thalamus and we have 'Vascular Thalamic Amnesia' They didn't know to what extent it would affect us at the beginning but they knew it had been in the Thalamus because there was a new white spot there on the MRI.

The Thalamus can affect long or short term memory, cause a' shift in personality' and affect attention and emotional responses.which would explain why we've been 'all over the place' and so disorganised...add onto that us being autistic and having the typical peri issues of brain fog, fatigue and memory issues on top and there's no wonder!

In fact I think we've only got through it because we can switch alters or temporarily blend if the one fronting is struggling. I say that because the people in the stroke group (who aren't DID just your average NT person) seem to be struggling a lot more in some respects with huge amounts of medication to help them cope!..I guess because it the same person up front all the time and they don't have other alters to switch with so never get a break?

Jay

Hi Suki and LS here today Hope everyone is doing ok?

We've had a bit of a system change around (roles wise), we realised the host needs more support to cope with constant Tinnitus cos they get bad depression if they have to endure it like 24 hours a day every day with no escape...so we're changing how we run life.

I've (Suki) updated our signature for now I'm (Teen S) doing weekends with Kate and SG (Suki is our blended name..we come to front blended but can still separate on the inside). Little Susie (LS) sometimes joins us for some of the time to play on the switch a bit or if we go to see the ducks.

She posted in the littles forum but the thunderstorm was getting a bit too scary for her, so she's disappeared inside for a bit until it passes over. (Hopefully we won't lose the internet/phone line this time!).

The others have chosen to remain in the inner world or occasionally assist by blending with main host if needed but either... aren't interested in being known to the outside world, (as a separate individual within this host body) or are a fragment (memory) part that has permanently taken animal or changeling/spirit form. They all get' looked after' we're getting better at getting more organised in how we run stuff! ..the brain seems to be slowly recovering a bit more in those area's

Anyway best get started on that pizza! LS is wanting to know if the thunder has gone yet!

Suki

Suki,

That sounds a lot like how we evolved in our system. We always had two hosts (Beth and Angel, Bri and Angel, Bri and Beth, Vi and Beth). Now it's mostly Vi and Lilith with the rest of us switching out as needed.

Not much has changed other than our dad seems to be still in his little world where he expects us to take are of most of his needs. This week he asked about what streaming services we use and was surprised that we only keep one active year round and only sub to the ones we want when something we want to watch comes on. We don't really sit and watch TV all the time any more.

But overall, we're good.

Leila.

I feel like I need safe adults around me to be able to function. There's this place in my town for mentally ill people to live in where there are sort of nurses around as well, I'd like to go there for a couple of months at least but I don't know how.