How are you today thread (trigger warning)

I'm drowning in outside chaos, like literally there is so much stuff, I don't know where to put it anymore. There are almost 20 years of unorganized documents (which show too much of our selves and our non-functionality for some times of our life)... and things older that, with so many emotions attached... I wish I just could burn everything right now

Some of the stuff also gives us crazy headache and emotional-chaos on top. Not sure if maybe we are overdoing it by trying to clean this $#%^ up in such a so short time
-Overwhelmed-Muninn

We're doing about the same. Got our taxes done this weekend. The preparation fee eats up most of our refund. At least we're still getting a refund.

MDs

we are having a rest day, a real one, and it feels kind of good to follow through with this

Exhausted from last night's T session. And from having to constantly re-evaluate how much we can handle.

MDs

Congrats on the rest day, birdsong.

MDs we hope you're able to take it easy as well, and recover from the T.

We saw our T yesterday too. Viola was there for it, but she was blended or something, she felt younger than usual for the whole session. We don't remember much of what actually happened or what was discussed.

We've recently discovered or realized that a lot of our perceptions are skewed by our self-image, eg. most of us perceive ourself as being young and small and unimportant, and so we see almost everyone else as larger than they are, and how we perceive other people's age is fairly random.

We'd be hopeless if we ever had to identify someone to the police. We'd overestimate their height and the best we can do for age would be 'somewhre betwen 15 and 50' or something like that.

Even static details we see differently. eg. Viola can never find doorknobs and lightswitches in the dark because she reaches too high, because she thinks she's smaller than the body is.

The aspect of this that's been most disturbing though, isn't that we see the world 'wrong', it's that we didn't know we were seeing it wrong. And we don't know what else we might be 'wrong' about.

Hi Amythyst folks,

Sounds like you're making some important realizations. Congrats on doing this.

We've been researching the relationship between childhood trauma and anger--in particular, how this anger affects the person's experiences later in life. Unresolved anger is and has been a significant impediment in our healing process, and we're hoping to find resources on how to process this anger at a pace we can handle.

MDs

Good to hear from you guys. It sounds like important work you're doing.

We're about to go to bed, but just feel so... sad/afraid/numb/angry. I'm learning how to do some new things and I guess it feels very scary. I feel scared when I ask questions or say anything about myself. I also feel scared when I see other people talking, like I tend to assume that they don't like me - which worsens anxiety again and doesn't actually help socializing.
Yesterday I talked to a past manager about cartoons..... I'm pretty sure a little pushed for that topic....

I hope tomorrow will be calmer. <3

Hello fireheart

I don't know your background story, but it sounds like a very good idea, that you train social situations.
Keep on, and don't let the bad self-judgements hold you back.
Being a very communicative person, I can really tell u it's worth it, to learn the ability to talk with almost anyone outside.

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I feel surprisingly well, although I didn't train yesterday.
Normally one of my parts is always pushing me hard, to never cancel any of the training days.
This time there seem to be an agreement, that one day off is okay.

we are super nervous. doc appointment and we thinnk he might want an ECG right away.
it has become kind of difficult to see that doc.

birdsong87 wrote:we are super nervous. doc appointment and we thinnk he might want an ECG right away.
it has become kind of difficult to see that doc.

I'm sure everything will be fine with your appointment nevertheless
Most of the times, the things seem harder before, than they actually are during the situation.